sincere cerebration
Thinking about aliens makes me feel so funny. I am confused about why the universe is such a large thing and why earth is such a small part of it even though it seems like earth is all there is sometimes. You know how people always say we should spend more time and money trying to solve problems on earth instead of investigating other planets? Well, those people always sort of annoy me, but I think I am one of them. And is it such an outrageous statement anyways? It makes sense. Plus, if we never did space exploration, I think I would feel better just looking at the stars and appreciating them instead of getting reminded about how we are one solar system in one galaxy. Galaxies are crazy, you know. Are there really other ones? Well, I guess maybe there are. But wow, that is crazy. Thinking about how there are other galaxies makes me feel even more uncomfortable about the idea of aliens. But I definitely don't believe in time travel, which makes me feel funny, so maybe I can not believe in aliens, but at this point in time, I remain unsure. This makes me uncomfortable.
Another thing that makes me uncomfortable are parasites. Parasites make me extremely anxious and also they make me not look forward to traveling the world (especially traveling about in third world countries). Specifically, parasites that are worms kind of freak me out. Side note: I think recently I was somewhere and saw something and said, 'that kind of looks like a platyhelminthes.' This statement made me feel like a nerd. One time I said if I ever had a parasite, I would probably want to die. This sounds very extreme. But it would not be normal for there to be something living in me and also living off me. There are three reasons why I am brining this up. 1. I was thinking about different kinds of aliens (not that any exist) and different possibilities of how aliens would act and what they would look like. And for all I know, they could be parasites. 2. I had a stomachache for a week and I got nervous I had parasites. In fact, I am still nervous about this. 3. Today I was thinking about how ridiculous tabloids are and access hollywood and celebrity-type things. And someone said we feed off other peoples lives, which disturbed me. This means I am a parasite. But I do not follow celebrity gossip. In fact, we should take all the money spent on celebrity exploration and do something positive with it.
If I had all the money ever spent on space exploration and celebrity exploration I would do something really major about the clean water crisis. Fortunately, that would help with the issue of parasites (among many issues). I bet all of that money could solve the problem and put things into place in a solid way so the problem would never exist again. I would also do other cool things with that money. Like translating the Bible! And also, putting a stop to the AIDS epidemic. And I would stop sex trafficking and help child soldiers and give opportunities to homeless people and help girls in Afghanistan and other places become more educated. And help animals who are nearing extinction (such as giraffes). I would support struggling musicians and buy everything fair trade. Goodness, does this mean money=peace? So what can I do to help the world without money? Because I think money does the opposite of equalling peace. Money, though, does help get things going. But it is such a hindrance, too. But I guess world peace is an impossible thing to strive for. But still, I should be optimistic. And I will continue to think it is important to save lives, in all ways. And the environment is important.
Sometimes people say 'save the whales' as some super-hippie kind of statement or something. I am against whaling. I deducted that I really like whales because they are so large. It is unreal to me that there are animals so large still living on this planet (they seem so prehistoric!). Really, whales are huge. There are whales in the ocean that would not fit in my dorm room. Also, some whales are blue. I think blue is kind of a mainstream favourite colour. It is not my favourite colour, but I think it is a common favourite colour because once my friend had a color-themed sleep-over and two people wanted the color blue. (My favourite is green, for the records even though I don't think there are any records.) The reason why it is cool that they are blue is because there are not that many things that are naturally blue in the world. But I think natural blue foods are more rare because I can only think of blueberries, blue corn, and those blue potato chips, made naturally from blue potatoes, or something. But the sky is blue, and it is huge (but we don't eat the sky). Also, water is blue. But not really. It is clear. I am not sure why it appears to be blue. Why do people say 'I am feeling blue' when they mean 'I am feeling sad'?
Speaking of large animals, do elephants really eat peanuts?
Speaking of elephants, there used to be war elephants, which seem really powerful. If people were in a war against me and they came with some elephants, I would probably run. But I think I am a pacifist.
I am having some difficulty wrapping my mind around modern art. But I also have trouble wrapping my mind around not modern art and the term art in general. Is everything art? Is nothing art? I feel like it has to be one of those. I think everything is art. But I said that in math class once and my teacher said a tree was not art because it formed naturally. To that, I say, 'so what.' But lately I do not really understand anything. For instance, who decided what was beautiful and what was not beautiful (referring to the way people look physically or referring to art). I just do not get that. And who decides things like what we learn in school?
You know, I think in public schools there is such a big hype about learning evolution, but I don't really know why. I understand that some people really believe in evolution or the big bang theory or whatever (personally, I think adaptation is the only part of this that makes sense, but adaptation is different than evolution). I think, though, that in a public school setting, we should learn all the possibilities of things. For instance, I had NO IDEA the world is not 2.2 billion years old until this year, but shouldn't educators know that is one thing that they should have at least made me aware of? I don't really think learning all sides or beliefs in an unbiased way from a teacher would be a bad thing. Plus, then we would all be able to relate to one another or at least not be ignorant. But I guess it is hard for teachers to be unbiased or something. And I feel someone controls what I am learning, I just have not figured out who it is yet. It is hard to think about how I should questions the things teachers teach me since I am supposed to think they are teaching me the truth. But truth is so obscure sometimes.
Here is something else that is obscure: the Soviet Union/Russia/the U.S.S.R. It really confuses me because I have trouble associating it with both Asia and Europe. It seems like something of its own. I think I should have learned more about this in school because I hardly even know anything about the Cold War. Except for that it reminds me of the color gray and something about an iron curtain. If I thought a nuclear missile would hit at any time, I would be a nervous wreck. (Once we were camping and I thought bears were going to attack at any time and I could not sleep for the life of me.) But I suppose that could happen now, which is something that is frightening to think about, so I will steer my thoughts in another direction. I hope that does not happen. Why are people so..impulsive or angry or violent. I just do not get it.
I think I like the idea of a collectivist society, but I am so skeptical about there ever being a genuinely successful society.
Another thing that makes me uncomfortable are parasites. Parasites make me extremely anxious and also they make me not look forward to traveling the world (especially traveling about in third world countries). Specifically, parasites that are worms kind of freak me out. Side note: I think recently I was somewhere and saw something and said, 'that kind of looks like a platyhelminthes.' This statement made me feel like a nerd. One time I said if I ever had a parasite, I would probably want to die. This sounds very extreme. But it would not be normal for there to be something living in me and also living off me. There are three reasons why I am brining this up. 1. I was thinking about different kinds of aliens (not that any exist) and different possibilities of how aliens would act and what they would look like. And for all I know, they could be parasites. 2. I had a stomachache for a week and I got nervous I had parasites. In fact, I am still nervous about this. 3. Today I was thinking about how ridiculous tabloids are and access hollywood and celebrity-type things. And someone said we feed off other peoples lives, which disturbed me. This means I am a parasite. But I do not follow celebrity gossip. In fact, we should take all the money spent on celebrity exploration and do something positive with it.
If I had all the money ever spent on space exploration and celebrity exploration I would do something really major about the clean water crisis. Fortunately, that would help with the issue of parasites (among many issues). I bet all of that money could solve the problem and put things into place in a solid way so the problem would never exist again. I would also do other cool things with that money. Like translating the Bible! And also, putting a stop to the AIDS epidemic. And I would stop sex trafficking and help child soldiers and give opportunities to homeless people and help girls in Afghanistan and other places become more educated. And help animals who are nearing extinction (such as giraffes). I would support struggling musicians and buy everything fair trade. Goodness, does this mean money=peace? So what can I do to help the world without money? Because I think money does the opposite of equalling peace. Money, though, does help get things going. But it is such a hindrance, too. But I guess world peace is an impossible thing to strive for. But still, I should be optimistic. And I will continue to think it is important to save lives, in all ways. And the environment is important.
Sometimes people say 'save the whales' as some super-hippie kind of statement or something. I am against whaling. I deducted that I really like whales because they are so large. It is unreal to me that there are animals so large still living on this planet (they seem so prehistoric!). Really, whales are huge. There are whales in the ocean that would not fit in my dorm room. Also, some whales are blue. I think blue is kind of a mainstream favourite colour. It is not my favourite colour, but I think it is a common favourite colour because once my friend had a color-themed sleep-over and two people wanted the color blue. (My favourite is green, for the records even though I don't think there are any records.) The reason why it is cool that they are blue is because there are not that many things that are naturally blue in the world. But I think natural blue foods are more rare because I can only think of blueberries, blue corn, and those blue potato chips, made naturally from blue potatoes, or something. But the sky is blue, and it is huge (but we don't eat the sky). Also, water is blue. But not really. It is clear. I am not sure why it appears to be blue. Why do people say 'I am feeling blue' when they mean 'I am feeling sad'?
Speaking of large animals, do elephants really eat peanuts?
Speaking of elephants, there used to be war elephants, which seem really powerful. If people were in a war against me and they came with some elephants, I would probably run. But I think I am a pacifist.
I am having some difficulty wrapping my mind around modern art. But I also have trouble wrapping my mind around not modern art and the term art in general. Is everything art? Is nothing art? I feel like it has to be one of those. I think everything is art. But I said that in math class once and my teacher said a tree was not art because it formed naturally. To that, I say, 'so what.' But lately I do not really understand anything. For instance, who decided what was beautiful and what was not beautiful (referring to the way people look physically or referring to art). I just do not get that. And who decides things like what we learn in school?
You know, I think in public schools there is such a big hype about learning evolution, but I don't really know why. I understand that some people really believe in evolution or the big bang theory or whatever (personally, I think adaptation is the only part of this that makes sense, but adaptation is different than evolution). I think, though, that in a public school setting, we should learn all the possibilities of things. For instance, I had NO IDEA the world is not 2.2 billion years old until this year, but shouldn't educators know that is one thing that they should have at least made me aware of? I don't really think learning all sides or beliefs in an unbiased way from a teacher would be a bad thing. Plus, then we would all be able to relate to one another or at least not be ignorant. But I guess it is hard for teachers to be unbiased or something. And I feel someone controls what I am learning, I just have not figured out who it is yet. It is hard to think about how I should questions the things teachers teach me since I am supposed to think they are teaching me the truth. But truth is so obscure sometimes.
Here is something else that is obscure: the Soviet Union/Russia/the U.S.S.R. It really confuses me because I have trouble associating it with both Asia and Europe. It seems like something of its own. I think I should have learned more about this in school because I hardly even know anything about the Cold War. Except for that it reminds me of the color gray and something about an iron curtain. If I thought a nuclear missile would hit at any time, I would be a nervous wreck. (Once we were camping and I thought bears were going to attack at any time and I could not sleep for the life of me.) But I suppose that could happen now, which is something that is frightening to think about, so I will steer my thoughts in another direction. I hope that does not happen. Why are people so..impulsive or angry or violent. I just do not get it.
I think I like the idea of a collectivist society, but I am so skeptical about there ever being a genuinely successful society.