letter to no one (II)
Hello. It got colder today. I could not get warm, literally. I am wearing three shirts and two pairs of socks and they are not helping. Winter should expire. School is stressful because I have a lot of homework and I keep getting confused about due dates and assignments and what I should be studying. And it is so hard to find motivation, especially when I know everything will have to be perfect for me to accept it, so I have to stay up late and wake up early, and it is just not working out. It is hard to have fun. It is really hard to find time to relax or just spend time doing something quiet and peaceful. It just feels like I never stop. I really want to go home, I think, but that wouldn't solve anything anyways. It is just really frustrating to be here. It seems like it is harder and harder to see good every day. I keep wondering what is going to happen in the world. How can I hope things are going to change when not all people can agree on what is good? The world will never be healed, anyways. So why do I bother and why do I care? It just seems like I could never identify with people who weren't hopeful. But in this moment, I can. And it sucks.