so much to do
it's that time of year where everything for school is due and then there's everything else in life. life is only demanding if you have desires and expectations. i've been feeling really.... jealous lately and little ie. unaccomplished and overwhelmed and just bad stuff.
i've been fighting with and picking fights w/ my bf. he's the sweetest bf ever, but i just dont see it as forever. i am trying to light a fire under my ass, to get some ambition and we just dont have the same desires for the future. i want to be busy and maybe a little stressed and to feel like i'm doing something w/ my life... more importantly, to feel like i'm getting something out of my life. i dont want to be jealous because "that could be me." i want it to be me doing things and to be proud of myself for having a job and stuff. ...yea, "and stuff"
so tomorrow is my sister's birthday. she will be 12.
i think i may buy a 3/4 length coat from the store i work at, a jcrew factory store. it's similar to the "lady" coat on jcrew.com except much less expensive. then i will tell everyone ive bought it and to throw money at me for christmas. the question is, black, camel or red.