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[pulsegenerator]

i lost it. my mind.
sitting here, slamming my fist into my head.
for no reason.
or for every reason.
i want out of my own god damn mind.
i dont want to be me anymore.
i dont want to think the way i think.
i dont want to feel the way i feel.
i dont even want to exsist right now.
i want to scream so badly.
to throw things all over, to break everything.
but i cant, i know i cant, i know i must not.
so i slam my fist into my head.
and no one cares.
no one cares.
no one cares.
no one cares.
no one cares.
dont tell me you care because youre a liar.
we're all liars.
we never tell the truth.
because we dont care.
no one cares.
no one cares.
no one cares.
no one cares.
and thats why i feel so worthless.
slamming my fist into my own head.
calling myself a liar.
because i dont care.
but i know i care.
otherwise i wouldnt be hitting myself.
i cant help it, i have nothing else to hit.
after a while, it doesnt hurt anymore.
but if it doesnt hurt, why am i still crying?
i cant keep doing this to myself.
but i cant fix it either.
i think im broken.
and no one cares.
dont tell me you do, because youre a liar.
and im a liar.
we're all liars here.
we're all worthless.
and no one cares.
no one cares.
no one cares.
no one cares.
no one cares.