im saying goodbye.
I've never liked saying goodbye, so I'm going to try and keep this short and simple. That's what I always think, and that is what I've done, and of course, never had problems saying goodbye. I don't think of them as endings, I think of them as intermissions. But this time I'm not coming back. It makes me wonder how many of my "friends" will still attempt to contact me? The last four days have been pretty tough. Not that too many people would ever see it, but it is taking it's toll on me. Tonight was, by far, the hardest of any though. Yes, I'm going to miss Poops, Tawne, Jerad, Liz, Dom... and everyone else. I could go through all the names, but I would be awake far longer than I want to be. After all, I must be up at about 9 in the morning so I can drive to Chicago, and begin making it my new home. But all of the people who mean something to me, none of them compares to saying goodbye to Thomas. I spent my last 2 hours with him, and no one else. And he is the only person that I can cry over leaving. My best friend of eight years, he has always been there for me, him and his entire family, and I will suddenly be without him. Out of all the difficult things that will happen in this transition, being there without Thomas will be the hardest. It already is.
That was the first thing I had to say, to try and get it off my chest.
Second, I have a lot of regrets left. I have far to many to name and explain. There are far to many people for me to say "I'm sorry". There are things I wish I would have done, and things I wish I wouldn't have done. All of these are so numerous that I cannot even begin to name them all, I will not attmept it now. In realizing all of this, I just want to give a general apology, not only to everyone who deserves it, but to myself. I'm beginning a transition period, and in this time, I will attempt to do things slightly different than I have before. Although I have never approached a situation of this magnitude, I feel that I will adjust, and everything will work out fine. I have faith.
so, since i dont know when the next time ill have internet (or a computer for that matter) will be, this may be my last entry for a great while. i just want you all to know that if ive ever called you a friend, you are special to me, and i will not forget you. ill miss all you kids, and i love most of you (sans Mike). those of you that i got to see, it was very good to see you, those of you i didnt get to see, hopefully i will see you again sometime.
And with that, I'm off to Chicago. If you live there, or are coming to visit, please, contact me. I'm going to need all the friends I can get.
Piece.
That was the first thing I had to say, to try and get it off my chest.
Second, I have a lot of regrets left. I have far to many to name and explain. There are far to many people for me to say "I'm sorry". There are things I wish I would have done, and things I wish I wouldn't have done. All of these are so numerous that I cannot even begin to name them all, I will not attmept it now. In realizing all of this, I just want to give a general apology, not only to everyone who deserves it, but to myself. I'm beginning a transition period, and in this time, I will attempt to do things slightly different than I have before. Although I have never approached a situation of this magnitude, I feel that I will adjust, and everything will work out fine. I have faith.
so, since i dont know when the next time ill have internet (or a computer for that matter) will be, this may be my last entry for a great while. i just want you all to know that if ive ever called you a friend, you are special to me, and i will not forget you. ill miss all you kids, and i love most of you (sans Mike). those of you that i got to see, it was very good to see you, those of you i didnt get to see, hopefully i will see you again sometime.
And with that, I'm off to Chicago. If you live there, or are coming to visit, please, contact me. I'm going to need all the friends I can get.
Piece.