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I'm going to edit them. and tell you who they are, and im adding in one more.
1. SIOBHAN
You're everything I wish I was. You're strength amazes me in every single way. You have been the hands holding me up, since forever. Our bond, is not just blood. Its indescribable. You know that everytime I say "I love you" I honestly mean it. I can scream it, I can get anyone to believe it. I'd jump off cliffs for you. You know I think you're the most amazing person in the whole world. You're the light in my eyes. You are my angel. I wish I could've told you that I'm yours to hold when you needed it most. You're my priority. You are my life. You're my past, my present and my future, without any doubt. Nothing can take you away from me. These aren't just words. These are promises that I haven't yet had the opportunity to fufil. I wish I could tell you this everyday. But I know you understand.
2. MATHILDE
A part of me will always love you. It's always on my mind. How I'm not happy feeling like I mean nothing at all to you now that you have re-made yourself. But if it's what you want then I love you enough to let you go on with your own life without me by your side anymore. I may be too easily broken by you. Do you even love me? We went through so much together. I held you. I've always just wanted you to be happy. Don't you want me to be happy? What do you want? I'm so upset. I feel so let down. Fuck you confuse me. I'm so freaking unbelievably upset right now. I WANT YOU TO LIVE UP TO EVERY SINGLE EXPECTATION BUT SOMETIMES YOU CANT.
3. BLAKE
It happened fast. Where do I begin, with you? You've changed my perspective on alot of things. That's just the beginning. YOU MAKE ME SMILE Genuine happiness, something for you to be proud of. I feel safe when you hold me. You're amazing. There's something about you. I want to know. You're confusing. You're unpredictable. You care about "the little things" but you wont lose face. YOU SEND ME LETTERS. You love honestly. YOU CARE FOR ME, and YOU KNOW THAT I CARE FOR YOU TOO AND YOU WONT EVER DOUBT THAT. I think of you always. No one understands this. Maybe no one ever will.... The thing that scares me the most is that when I look into your eyes I actually see myself. That never happens with anyone. Or I've never noticed it with anyone.
4. MY DAD
I wish you would honestly care. I wish that you would call me. I wish you cared. I wish I didn't love you. You've proven to me that you're not any hero, that parents can let you down. I don't want you to come back into my life, make all these stupid fucking promises again and then just let me down. I'm wary of trusting you.
5. MY MUM
I wish I could be what you always wanted me to be. I'm sorry. This isn't like normal "oh i wish my parents were proud of me". I'm not even joking. So fuck you, because this is deeper than what you ever thought it was. I think the only person who KIND OF understands at the least is Siobhan.
6. BARTON
Thank you for listening to me. For being a good friend, keeping promises, making me step back and think about it for a second. Thank you for making me smile. You are an amazing person and I know that there's something good in store for you. It doesn't matter what's "right" or "wrong", because to me, there isn't. You gotta be patient. There's something good at the end of the tunnel for you. I love you.
7. JACOB
I am stronger now, without you. I hate you SO MUCH for what you did to me, but thanks for making me realise alot of stuff. You are nothing to me. Nothing. I never loved you. I was infatuated with the idea of someone liking me for who I was. I know now that I'm perfect as who I am.
8. JOSH
I am so, so, so, so sorry. There's nothing else to it. I didn't want it to be this way. I'm glad we can still be friends. Fuck I'm so sorry.
9. CLAIRE
I fucking miss you, and the old times with you. Why did you leave me. I thought you would come back...
10. MITCH
You, are an idiot. YOURE SO FUCKING YOUNG WHAT YOURE LIKE 15 AND YOU HAVE A FUCKING STRAIGHT EDGE TATTOO.
IM GONNA LAUGH AT YOU BECAUSE YOURE STUCK WITH THAT SHIT AND I HATE YOU FOR GOING BACK ON ALL OUR PROMISES. FUCK YOU
11. NATHAN
You are seriously, my other half. I love that we're so similar, but still different. I love work with you. I love it when you come over and we be dickheads on the bus. I love how we can finish eachothers sentances, or talk about shit and we havent been close for very long at all, and it's still all comfortable and good. I love that you make me laugh and that you APPRECIATE all the things like hugs and text messages and we are still just such good friends. I love that you know exactly what I want, and i know what you want. I love that you're such a big part of my life now.
I mean, were born 1 year and 3 days apart, we both have these stupid things in our pasts, we both have 2 middle names, you live in number 22 and i live in number 11. We both work at maccas and we both act like complete fools. We both can't sleep and we both NEVER have credit. Both of our parents are split up. I can go on... .
I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE IVE KNOWN YOU FOREVER
1. SIOBHAN
You're everything I wish I was. You're strength amazes me in every single way. You have been the hands holding me up, since forever. Our bond, is not just blood. Its indescribable. You know that everytime I say "I love you" I honestly mean it. I can scream it, I can get anyone to believe it. I'd jump off cliffs for you. You know I think you're the most amazing person in the whole world. You're the light in my eyes. You are my angel. I wish I could've told you that I'm yours to hold when you needed it most. You're my priority. You are my life. You're my past, my present and my future, without any doubt. Nothing can take you away from me. These aren't just words. These are promises that I haven't yet had the opportunity to fufil. I wish I could tell you this everyday. But I know you understand.
2. MATHILDE
A part of me will always love you. It's always on my mind. How I'm not happy feeling like I mean nothing at all to you now that you have re-made yourself. But if it's what you want then I love you enough to let you go on with your own life without me by your side anymore. I may be too easily broken by you. Do you even love me? We went through so much together. I held you. I've always just wanted you to be happy. Don't you want me to be happy? What do you want? I'm so upset. I feel so let down. Fuck you confuse me. I'm so freaking unbelievably upset right now. I WANT YOU TO LIVE UP TO EVERY SINGLE EXPECTATION BUT SOMETIMES YOU CANT.
3. BLAKE
It happened fast. Where do I begin, with you? You've changed my perspective on alot of things. That's just the beginning. YOU MAKE ME SMILE Genuine happiness, something for you to be proud of. I feel safe when you hold me. You're amazing. There's something about you. I want to know. You're confusing. You're unpredictable. You care about "the little things" but you wont lose face. YOU SEND ME LETTERS. You love honestly. YOU CARE FOR ME, and YOU KNOW THAT I CARE FOR YOU TOO AND YOU WONT EVER DOUBT THAT. I think of you always. No one understands this. Maybe no one ever will.... The thing that scares me the most is that when I look into your eyes I actually see myself. That never happens with anyone. Or I've never noticed it with anyone.
4. MY DAD
I wish you would honestly care. I wish that you would call me. I wish you cared. I wish I didn't love you. You've proven to me that you're not any hero, that parents can let you down. I don't want you to come back into my life, make all these stupid fucking promises again and then just let me down. I'm wary of trusting you.
5. MY MUM
I wish I could be what you always wanted me to be. I'm sorry. This isn't like normal "oh i wish my parents were proud of me". I'm not even joking. So fuck you, because this is deeper than what you ever thought it was. I think the only person who KIND OF understands at the least is Siobhan.
6. BARTON
Thank you for listening to me. For being a good friend, keeping promises, making me step back and think about it for a second. Thank you for making me smile. You are an amazing person and I know that there's something good in store for you. It doesn't matter what's "right" or "wrong", because to me, there isn't. You gotta be patient. There's something good at the end of the tunnel for you. I love you.
7. JACOB
I am stronger now, without you. I hate you SO MUCH for what you did to me, but thanks for making me realise alot of stuff. You are nothing to me. Nothing. I never loved you. I was infatuated with the idea of someone liking me for who I was. I know now that I'm perfect as who I am.
8. JOSH
I am so, so, so, so sorry. There's nothing else to it. I didn't want it to be this way. I'm glad we can still be friends. Fuck I'm so sorry.
9. CLAIRE
I fucking miss you, and the old times with you. Why did you leave me. I thought you would come back...
10. MITCH
You, are an idiot. YOURE SO FUCKING YOUNG WHAT YOURE LIKE 15 AND YOU HAVE A FUCKING STRAIGHT EDGE TATTOO.
IM GONNA LAUGH AT YOU BECAUSE YOURE STUCK WITH THAT SHIT AND I HATE YOU FOR GOING BACK ON ALL OUR PROMISES. FUCK YOU
11. NATHAN
You are seriously, my other half. I love that we're so similar, but still different. I love work with you. I love it when you come over and we be dickheads on the bus. I love how we can finish eachothers sentances, or talk about shit and we havent been close for very long at all, and it's still all comfortable and good. I love that you make me laugh and that you APPRECIATE all the things like hugs and text messages and we are still just such good friends. I love that you know exactly what I want, and i know what you want. I love that you're such a big part of my life now.
I mean, were born 1 year and 3 days apart, we both have these stupid things in our pasts, we both have 2 middle names, you live in number 22 and i live in number 11. We both work at maccas and we both act like complete fools. We both can't sleep and we both NEVER have credit. Both of our parents are split up. I can go on... .
I HONESTLY FEEL LIKE IVE KNOWN YOU FOREVER