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So i'm like negatively capable of making friends, and if i finally do make them, i can't keep them...because i suck even more at long distance friendships. Once you move away from a person and don't see them every day anymore...you have nothing to talk about, and it's all stupid and awkward, so i just give up. I've had about 5 people in my life that were my best friend in the whole entire world, and out of those, i haven't spoken to one in about 4 years, and she lives in the same fucking city as me, and another one i haven't talked to in 2 years, and one i see about twice a year now, and it's kind of awkward, and one i talk to on aim occasionally, but it's...weird...now, and one that i actually see/talk to on a regular basis and he makes me really happy, but he's an alcoholic with constant girl problems...and these were my closest friends...imagine the other friends i've had...half of them barely even knew me ever, and the other half i've lost touch with...even if they go to my fucking school now... i disgust myself, ok the end