Hey Kill Yourself.
I play doctor for fice minutes flat
Before I cut my heart open... and let the air out
Three bugs, a pound of dust
Some wind spilled before me
In the strangest matter that had
Broke away my tear spout
As I lie there
With my tounge spread wide open
A black widow had offered me
A sweetheart tube
As I injected
The candied heart that I selected
She said don't hesitate
Just do what you have to do!
Its hard to stay between the lines of skin
Just cuz I have nerves, don't mean that I can feel
I wasn't very much fun to be with anyway
Just let the blood run red cuz I can't feel!
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time...
Its time
IT IS TIME
I've come to the conclusion that when I'm calm about something that upsets me, I've lost control. I've been pacing around my house, blasting music, trying not to break too much. I bitched my mom out, hung up, and haven't heard from her since. Got in a fight with Jenn, made up, and sat there listening to her have fun while with a straight face, no thoughts, and no feelings tons of tears poured down my face. Kinda bitched out Holly, in a nice manner... With Paul we just kinda sat there not talking at all as I silently cried. I feel so dead. There's no thoughts running through my mind. No feeling in my body. Dead.. Huh.. Comes with a new meaning tonight.. It feels so much closer. Death. I think I've made a new discovery. It all seems so clear now. My thoughts are back. It's as if I've snapped back into life with the answer to all. Death. I love you Paul.
Before I cut my heart open... and let the air out
Three bugs, a pound of dust
Some wind spilled before me
In the strangest matter that had
Broke away my tear spout
As I lie there
With my tounge spread wide open
A black widow had offered me
A sweetheart tube
As I injected
The candied heart that I selected
She said don't hesitate
Just do what you have to do!
Its hard to stay between the lines of skin
Just cuz I have nerves, don't mean that I can feel
I wasn't very much fun to be with anyway
Just let the blood run red cuz I can't feel!
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time until the time is right
Biding my time...
Its time
IT IS TIME
I've come to the conclusion that when I'm calm about something that upsets me, I've lost control. I've been pacing around my house, blasting music, trying not to break too much. I bitched my mom out, hung up, and haven't heard from her since. Got in a fight with Jenn, made up, and sat there listening to her have fun while with a straight face, no thoughts, and no feelings tons of tears poured down my face. Kinda bitched out Holly, in a nice manner... With Paul we just kinda sat there not talking at all as I silently cried. I feel so dead. There's no thoughts running through my mind. No feeling in my body. Dead.. Huh.. Comes with a new meaning tonight.. It feels so much closer. Death. I think I've made a new discovery. It all seems so clear now. My thoughts are back. It's as if I've snapped back into life with the answer to all. Death. I love you Paul.