mhmm thassss right.
things tend to be looking up. i am going through so many changes..
i wish i knew NOW what i want to do with my life.. i dont want to pay for school just to change professions 30 times..
BUT charlie told me meg at blue hippo was planning to start piercing. and needed a partner. and charlie mentioned me and actually told her everything thats been going on with me and shit.
END CONCLUSION=
she is interested and from what he said i have the job if im really about it.. so fuck yeah.
i need to go talk to her tomorrow.
my main passion is art and tattooing but maybe in time i can help them get a chair in there and get me a license and gun and everything..
that would be so fucking amazing.
I HAVE A GOAL!
and its not a dream.. this is really what makes me cream my panties. so i NEED to do it.
and its not far fetched. i need to start accepting compliments, and i do like my art. but i was always thinking no one else did. cause thats just what i do..
hopefully i can start regaining confidence and stabbing my low self esteem.
i also might go to school in the fall. ive really been thinking about being a prison security guard. and there is a program for that at mid.
i doubt i will follow through with that. but i would enjoy it. i mean i wont like what i have to do. but i can understand anyone. doesnt mean i have to like it but i see the way people are and not bring my own feelings into work. i just really like to know people and it would give me the chance to figure out more on how and why we act the way we do. most people would say well become a pyschiatrist. but thats not what i want. i wouldnt be talking to those who need the help more than others. i mean yes they do. but if you see you need help your far more healthy than those who dont.
its a motivation for me to get my own act together for a reason.
NA has been good. they are so loving there. AA not so much. some are.. but they just dont make you feel comfortable. well me anyways.
my revenge on one man in there will be to stay sober and make something of myself. i could fight him. or kill him. but there are so many more assholes that i cant just go around killing everyone that deserves it. and i can see that love hurts him most.
ok i need to draw draw draw tonight nigght nightt.
slice like a ninja cut like a razorblade !
i wish i knew NOW what i want to do with my life.. i dont want to pay for school just to change professions 30 times..
BUT charlie told me meg at blue hippo was planning to start piercing. and needed a partner. and charlie mentioned me and actually told her everything thats been going on with me and shit.
END CONCLUSION=
she is interested and from what he said i have the job if im really about it.. so fuck yeah.
i need to go talk to her tomorrow.
my main passion is art and tattooing but maybe in time i can help them get a chair in there and get me a license and gun and everything..
that would be so fucking amazing.
I HAVE A GOAL!
and its not a dream.. this is really what makes me cream my panties. so i NEED to do it.
and its not far fetched. i need to start accepting compliments, and i do like my art. but i was always thinking no one else did. cause thats just what i do..
hopefully i can start regaining confidence and stabbing my low self esteem.
i also might go to school in the fall. ive really been thinking about being a prison security guard. and there is a program for that at mid.
i doubt i will follow through with that. but i would enjoy it. i mean i wont like what i have to do. but i can understand anyone. doesnt mean i have to like it but i see the way people are and not bring my own feelings into work. i just really like to know people and it would give me the chance to figure out more on how and why we act the way we do. most people would say well become a pyschiatrist. but thats not what i want. i wouldnt be talking to those who need the help more than others. i mean yes they do. but if you see you need help your far more healthy than those who dont.
its a motivation for me to get my own act together for a reason.
NA has been good. they are so loving there. AA not so much. some are.. but they just dont make you feel comfortable. well me anyways.
my revenge on one man in there will be to stay sober and make something of myself. i could fight him. or kill him. but there are so many more assholes that i cant just go around killing everyone that deserves it. and i can see that love hurts him most.
ok i need to draw draw draw tonight nigght nightt.
slice like a ninja cut like a razorblade !