If it wasn't for...
What an odd phrase the above is. It can be applied to basically any little thing that happens in your life as something will always happen before something else. Be it just the decision to go out, the decision to not go out, the decision to let someone else make the decision.
For example I look straight ahead and there is a picture of me and 3 guys from uni at our graduation. If I hadn't have decided to go play football one night when 15 I wouldn't have bust my knee, probably wouldn't have failed maths due to the knee and would have went to uni a year earlier than I did as was my plan (had applied etc) and would never have met the guys.
I am much more aware these days of the possibilities certain actions could have in the future than I have been in the past. I seem to have been doing a lot of retrospective thinking about how my life has gotten to where it is, all the little decisions that create a domino affect that then tumbles over time.
I now think right after an event about how it could affect me in the long run and will think through different possible outcomes. I don't really know if anyone else does this as I have never discussed it with others but for some reason it has spilled out on to this from nowhere.
It is definitely an age thing, of that I am sure. The older you get the more you realise every action has a reaction, or a lot of reactions depending on what it is. It's a shame you can never foresee exactly what these reactions will be.
Which brings me to the crux of this whole entry. I now seem to dwell on things a little too much. In the past I would either just dive in head first or completely dismiss something outright. These days every decision is given some sort of significance by me and I need justifications and reassurances, sometimes just from myself, but sometimes from other people also. I'm assuming it is just a stage that passes like the ones before it - and I think I'm changing that now anyway - but it can get irritating where you attempt to weigh up every little detail of something that, in the grand scheme of things, is not predetermined and you have little or no control over.
For example I look straight ahead and there is a picture of me and 3 guys from uni at our graduation. If I hadn't have decided to go play football one night when 15 I wouldn't have bust my knee, probably wouldn't have failed maths due to the knee and would have went to uni a year earlier than I did as was my plan (had applied etc) and would never have met the guys.
I am much more aware these days of the possibilities certain actions could have in the future than I have been in the past. I seem to have been doing a lot of retrospective thinking about how my life has gotten to where it is, all the little decisions that create a domino affect that then tumbles over time.
I now think right after an event about how it could affect me in the long run and will think through different possible outcomes. I don't really know if anyone else does this as I have never discussed it with others but for some reason it has spilled out on to this from nowhere.
It is definitely an age thing, of that I am sure. The older you get the more you realise every action has a reaction, or a lot of reactions depending on what it is. It's a shame you can never foresee exactly what these reactions will be.
Which brings me to the crux of this whole entry. I now seem to dwell on things a little too much. In the past I would either just dive in head first or completely dismiss something outright. These days every decision is given some sort of significance by me and I need justifications and reassurances, sometimes just from myself, but sometimes from other people also. I'm assuming it is just a stage that passes like the ones before it - and I think I'm changing that now anyway - but it can get irritating where you attempt to weigh up every little detail of something that, in the grand scheme of things, is not predetermined and you have little or no control over.