not intended for any one person, but most people
I am tired of people not accepting me for who I am. I am read as an offensive, needy, incompetent asshole. And I am not. I am not given enough credit. I am assumed to be worse than I am by most people. People who assume I am less human than them. I express myself differently and because of that it must be offensive or stupid or wrong. Most of my good friends think I insult them alot, my tremendously close friends understand these "insults" to actually be complements. I am not more or less intellengent, I only express myself differently. I have a fire in me and people seem to be afraid of that.
Fuck you all.
I have found people who get me. I feel sane again, because I am no longer the only one who thinks my mindset is right. How else can you define sanity?
But I have decided again that I have to be cocky. I will no longer sacrifice myself for you, because that is apparently what everyone wants. Not someone who is polite in voicing their own opinion, but someone who is polite by only having your opinion. After all, we dont want our feelings hurt do we?
If you are afraid of me, or annoyed by me, or whatever it is than I am no longer going to apologize to you, because I realize it is not through my fault that these misunderstandings exist. I am always ready to explain to anyone that I do care about you and I respect you; so grow up. If you continue to treat me as less and I continue to treat you as an equal I do not feel I have lost any moral ground.
So if you are too afraid of people's differences and refuse to learn to understand and respect them I have no desire to talk to you. I am an acquired taste, but the people who enjoy me love me. And the people who don't cannot stand me. That simply means there is a level a lot of people dont understand. And they get angry at me for it.
Stop pushing me out, I am leaving. Sorry for giving you too much credit. You should be sorry for not giving yourself enough. And you are angry at me for not selling out. Do not pull me down. I know my potential, I do not put as much faith in the excuses like you. I am in control of myself dont get mad at me for expecting you to be at least as good as I am. Do not be mad at me for me liking you and having faith in you, especially for having more faith in you than I do myself.
I am not insulting. I am never insulting. I am being honest with you because I respect you and I feel you are smart enough to not have to have me treat you like a child. I dont think I have to create fairy tales to make you feel better. Apparently I am wrong. You cannot see that I respect you, you expect me to hang out with or talk to people I dont respect. That is ridiculous. I only hang out with people I respect. If you have the chance to feel insulted you are close enough to me that anything that seems negative that I say is obviously no where near as good as how tremendous you are in my mind. Because if I hated you I would not talk to you. I am offering my honest opinion as a friend would. I am actually respecting you. I am willing to let you into my most personal thoughts and you are offended by that gesture. Stop blaming me for you being unable to deal with me when I am real with you.
I am honest always, and I want to be your friend. If you do not feel desired by me than it is entirely in your head. I want to be friends with everyone. Social functionings are the most beautiful part of existance. People are the most beautiful part of being alive. Especially the truly human part of people: their struggles and flaws.
When you all grow up come be my friend. I would love to meet you for real. Just do not tell me how I say things is wrong or insulting. You are the insulting one. I did not go out of my head to say I disliked you like you do. I simply say what I think, and still respect you.
and to all: goodnight.
Fuck you all.
I have found people who get me. I feel sane again, because I am no longer the only one who thinks my mindset is right. How else can you define sanity?
But I have decided again that I have to be cocky. I will no longer sacrifice myself for you, because that is apparently what everyone wants. Not someone who is polite in voicing their own opinion, but someone who is polite by only having your opinion. After all, we dont want our feelings hurt do we?
If you are afraid of me, or annoyed by me, or whatever it is than I am no longer going to apologize to you, because I realize it is not through my fault that these misunderstandings exist. I am always ready to explain to anyone that I do care about you and I respect you; so grow up. If you continue to treat me as less and I continue to treat you as an equal I do not feel I have lost any moral ground.
So if you are too afraid of people's differences and refuse to learn to understand and respect them I have no desire to talk to you. I am an acquired taste, but the people who enjoy me love me. And the people who don't cannot stand me. That simply means there is a level a lot of people dont understand. And they get angry at me for it.
Stop pushing me out, I am leaving. Sorry for giving you too much credit. You should be sorry for not giving yourself enough. And you are angry at me for not selling out. Do not pull me down. I know my potential, I do not put as much faith in the excuses like you. I am in control of myself dont get mad at me for expecting you to be at least as good as I am. Do not be mad at me for me liking you and having faith in you, especially for having more faith in you than I do myself.
I am not insulting. I am never insulting. I am being honest with you because I respect you and I feel you are smart enough to not have to have me treat you like a child. I dont think I have to create fairy tales to make you feel better. Apparently I am wrong. You cannot see that I respect you, you expect me to hang out with or talk to people I dont respect. That is ridiculous. I only hang out with people I respect. If you have the chance to feel insulted you are close enough to me that anything that seems negative that I say is obviously no where near as good as how tremendous you are in my mind. Because if I hated you I would not talk to you. I am offering my honest opinion as a friend would. I am actually respecting you. I am willing to let you into my most personal thoughts and you are offended by that gesture. Stop blaming me for you being unable to deal with me when I am real with you.
I am honest always, and I want to be your friend. If you do not feel desired by me than it is entirely in your head. I want to be friends with everyone. Social functionings are the most beautiful part of existance. People are the most beautiful part of being alive. Especially the truly human part of people: their struggles and flaws.
When you all grow up come be my friend. I would love to meet you for real. Just do not tell me how I say things is wrong or insulting. You are the insulting one. I did not go out of my head to say I disliked you like you do. I simply say what I think, and still respect you.
and to all: goodnight.