Fatherhood.
I woke up about 30 mins ago after a weird dream about me being a father of a baby girl with a girl who could not keep and nor could I. So I gave up to my aunt and uncle. The last part of the dream was just breif pictures of me having to watch her grow up and me not being able to be the father to her like the way i wanted to. When i woke up I had the strong urge to look through some old papers i keep next to my bed in a drawer. In it i found old pictures, letters, notes and one of my years books in it. One of the the things i found was a letter that was from my real father. I could not put it down i read through it about three times. It got me thinking about being a when or if i become a father and what it would take to have to give up my child. I dont know it bothers me some times. Will i end up being like my father and just running away at the first sign of being a father or will i be a better man and be able to stay. Then i think what if my father had a good reason to leave. I dont know i guess im just being odd. i guess until next time.