Doesn't it bother you that you're on fire?
Everything is pretty bittersweet right now.
I just want to get everything with school done, it's hanging over my head like I'm about to get sufficated with a pillow. I think things will be so much better once that last assignment is handed in.
I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster sometimes. I let pressure get the best of me. My perfectionism gets under the skin of some people sometimes. Hell, it even annoys me. I wish I knew why I get upset when something doesn't go the way I want it to. The really crazy thing is, is that if you were to ask me what I wanted, I would have no fuckin clue.
I hate that I let some people see my vulnerable side. I hate it even more that they enjoy that I let them know it. I just can't wait until they leave so they're not in my face the whole anymore.
I am extremely drained this weekend...physically, emotionally, mentally...I'm like the walking dead right now.
Sometimes I think I'm way ahead of myself in having my life the way I want it when its not the time or its in the wrong stage. Maybe that's why I get so bored with things very easily. Or I dont know, maybe it makes me an outcast. Who knows?
There's a lot of things I wish I could change, I tried though, I can't.
You're never going to be 100 percent satisfied with anything, ever. No matter how much you think you will. It doesn't happen.
Please if anything, get me through these next two weeks, then hopefully I could finally enjoy myself.
I just want to get everything with school done, it's hanging over my head like I'm about to get sufficated with a pillow. I think things will be so much better once that last assignment is handed in.
I feel like I'm on a rollercoaster sometimes. I let pressure get the best of me. My perfectionism gets under the skin of some people sometimes. Hell, it even annoys me. I wish I knew why I get upset when something doesn't go the way I want it to. The really crazy thing is, is that if you were to ask me what I wanted, I would have no fuckin clue.
I hate that I let some people see my vulnerable side. I hate it even more that they enjoy that I let them know it. I just can't wait until they leave so they're not in my face the whole anymore.
I am extremely drained this weekend...physically, emotionally, mentally...I'm like the walking dead right now.
Sometimes I think I'm way ahead of myself in having my life the way I want it when its not the time or its in the wrong stage. Maybe that's why I get so bored with things very easily. Or I dont know, maybe it makes me an outcast. Who knows?
There's a lot of things I wish I could change, I tried though, I can't.
You're never going to be 100 percent satisfied with anything, ever. No matter how much you think you will. It doesn't happen.
Please if anything, get me through these next two weeks, then hopefully I could finally enjoy myself.