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As the title suggests, there is a lot of TMI comming in this post. It prob wont be too bad, but hey, Im planing on talking about sex. Everyones favorite topic. Well, maybe not the act itself, but sexual experiances and what I like about the lead up.
This is also written from the guys perspective also, no duh right?
God knows that I love sex, who doesnt? However, sex itself is not my favorite part of the act. My favorite part is everthing leading up, especially the inital kiss. It's everything surrounding the moment, the music in the background (hopefully its heavy on the bass or its slow and sweet, music always sets the tempo), the warmth or cold in the air (I always remember this, its probably why I love a chill in the air), how the sun or moon's light shines upon her face, the look in her eyes, how she feels in your arms, the tension and excitement you feel leading up to it (its like putting new strings on a guitar and that subtle fear you have that they are so tight they will break and if you havent had this happen to you, it hurts like hell, but they have to be and it's all worth it when you pluck those first sweet, beautiful notes),the moment is perfect. Then you take a deep breath, close your eyes, throw away all your inhibitions and kiss her, and all that tension becomes that passion that you use to sweep her off her feet. Some how, all the fear you once had of kissing her becomes your fuel. You take and keep that breath for the duration of the kiss, your hands caress her cheek, close to her jawline, and you do this because you are taken by the moment. It's a long deep inital kiss, but you keep the tounge back during, you dont want to throw everything you have into this one, you want to enjoy it but you want to keep her wanting more. You then slowly back away, but her lips and her hands are trembling, you can feel it. Then you open your eyes and notice that she is breathing heavily and that she has collapsed in your arms. You caress her cheek a little more, and because you want her, you keep your lips close enough to feel her breathing. She takes deep breaths and you then pull away to look deeply into her eyes. This is the where the tension comes back and you are consumed in a flood of thoughts, passion, and emotion. Does she want you? Was the moment right? You get your answer when you look into her eyes. They are deep and their color is brighter and deeper than ever. They also speak to you, "Why did you stop? I want you. Please come back." All of this happens within seconds after you broke away from the first kiss. She then makes her intensions known. With what little strength you left her with, she grabs your shirt or the back of your neck and pulls you back to her. She wants you. Its no longer about what you want, it becomes about what you both want. This kiss is more passionate than the first, she runs her hands thru your hair, she caresses your cheeks and this only makes you want her more. Your hands do the same, you start running yours thru her hair, then move down her shoulders. Your hands have eyes of their own and they seek her hands. By this time you are running on instinct. You are consumed by passion and desire and everything in the world that you want is right there with you. You feel the connection and suddenly (depending on where you are), you lay her down on the bed or ground. Perhaps you put her against a wall, anything that will stablize you because you know this will be a while and you both dont want it to end. Her lips are softer than clouds and to show how you feel, you give a little bite. She responds by breathing harder and pulling you closer, you do the same. You cannot be close enough to one another. You take a break from her lips, you want her, not just her lips. You then slowly move to the nape of her neck, giving gentle kisses moving into more passionate ones. She respones by moaning and keeping her hands in your hair, her breathing stays heavy and this fuels your desire even more. You go back to her lips and then either you or her begins touching the others body....... We all know what happens after this point.
This is my favorite part of sex, its doesnt even have to conclude with sex. Dont get me wrong, it would be nice, but at least for me, Im ok with just leaving at that, even though it is very very very hard to not have sex afterwards. I dont know why I wanted to write about this, I guess I really am a hopeless romantic. Its probably because I had an amazing Friday night and I wanted to explain why I loved it, eventhough there is more to the story, but I will keep that to myself for the time being. It was nice and she is a wonderful woman. It's a damn shame she is moving to Alabama though. I would love to get more involved with her, but we agreed that the point is moot. It wouldnt be for the best, for either of us. We both have this problem of falling quickly and hard. How would that play out in May when she leaves? She lives in Athens now, and is close enough to try, but I dont want May to come and all of a sudden we are so far away from each other that we could only see each other twice or three times a month at best. I also dont want her to be tied down to a person who is far away. I did that once and its hard to do. I want her to have a great time in Alabama and I dont want her to have to worry about a person who that far away. She would worry, she would contantly think about it. I dont want that, I want her to be worry free and she will be in grad school and will need to put off of her effort into that. She is damn amazing though. I shouldnt have kissed her though, one of the downsides of that sort of passion and desire is that you tend to think about that person more often than you should and I caught that sickness. Fuck me. Oh well, its not like we are completely invested and who knows how things may play out, perhaps I think too much, which is normally the case. Le sigh.
On to recent events. We all went out Friday night, that was pretty fun. Me, Jane (the aformentioned girl), Dee, Allen, Galyon, Devan, and Henry all went out. We started at Sunspot then moved to Cool Beans. Dee is a girl for Chattown that doesnt know anyone up here, so our common friend Jessica called me and asked if I would take her out and introduce her to Knoxville and to some people. She is pretty fun and beautiful if I may add, without sounding sleezy. Dark mocha skin and even darker black hair with a wonderful sense of humor. Ill definantly see her again. Nothing romantic or anything (at least not now) but she was fun to hang out with and I would like to hangout with her again. I didnt do shit yesterday or today. So yea, aside from Friday, the weekend was booring as shit. I guess I'll hope off for now and do some homework. Peace y'all.
This is also written from the guys perspective also, no duh right?
God knows that I love sex, who doesnt? However, sex itself is not my favorite part of the act. My favorite part is everthing leading up, especially the inital kiss. It's everything surrounding the moment, the music in the background (hopefully its heavy on the bass or its slow and sweet, music always sets the tempo), the warmth or cold in the air (I always remember this, its probably why I love a chill in the air), how the sun or moon's light shines upon her face, the look in her eyes, how she feels in your arms, the tension and excitement you feel leading up to it (its like putting new strings on a guitar and that subtle fear you have that they are so tight they will break and if you havent had this happen to you, it hurts like hell, but they have to be and it's all worth it when you pluck those first sweet, beautiful notes),the moment is perfect. Then you take a deep breath, close your eyes, throw away all your inhibitions and kiss her, and all that tension becomes that passion that you use to sweep her off her feet. Some how, all the fear you once had of kissing her becomes your fuel. You take and keep that breath for the duration of the kiss, your hands caress her cheek, close to her jawline, and you do this because you are taken by the moment. It's a long deep inital kiss, but you keep the tounge back during, you dont want to throw everything you have into this one, you want to enjoy it but you want to keep her wanting more. You then slowly back away, but her lips and her hands are trembling, you can feel it. Then you open your eyes and notice that she is breathing heavily and that she has collapsed in your arms. You caress her cheek a little more, and because you want her, you keep your lips close enough to feel her breathing. She takes deep breaths and you then pull away to look deeply into her eyes. This is the where the tension comes back and you are consumed in a flood of thoughts, passion, and emotion. Does she want you? Was the moment right? You get your answer when you look into her eyes. They are deep and their color is brighter and deeper than ever. They also speak to you, "Why did you stop? I want you. Please come back." All of this happens within seconds after you broke away from the first kiss. She then makes her intensions known. With what little strength you left her with, she grabs your shirt or the back of your neck and pulls you back to her. She wants you. Its no longer about what you want, it becomes about what you both want. This kiss is more passionate than the first, she runs her hands thru your hair, she caresses your cheeks and this only makes you want her more. Your hands do the same, you start running yours thru her hair, then move down her shoulders. Your hands have eyes of their own and they seek her hands. By this time you are running on instinct. You are consumed by passion and desire and everything in the world that you want is right there with you. You feel the connection and suddenly (depending on where you are), you lay her down on the bed or ground. Perhaps you put her against a wall, anything that will stablize you because you know this will be a while and you both dont want it to end. Her lips are softer than clouds and to show how you feel, you give a little bite. She responds by breathing harder and pulling you closer, you do the same. You cannot be close enough to one another. You take a break from her lips, you want her, not just her lips. You then slowly move to the nape of her neck, giving gentle kisses moving into more passionate ones. She respones by moaning and keeping her hands in your hair, her breathing stays heavy and this fuels your desire even more. You go back to her lips and then either you or her begins touching the others body....... We all know what happens after this point.
This is my favorite part of sex, its doesnt even have to conclude with sex. Dont get me wrong, it would be nice, but at least for me, Im ok with just leaving at that, even though it is very very very hard to not have sex afterwards. I dont know why I wanted to write about this, I guess I really am a hopeless romantic. Its probably because I had an amazing Friday night and I wanted to explain why I loved it, eventhough there is more to the story, but I will keep that to myself for the time being. It was nice and she is a wonderful woman. It's a damn shame she is moving to Alabama though. I would love to get more involved with her, but we agreed that the point is moot. It wouldnt be for the best, for either of us. We both have this problem of falling quickly and hard. How would that play out in May when she leaves? She lives in Athens now, and is close enough to try, but I dont want May to come and all of a sudden we are so far away from each other that we could only see each other twice or three times a month at best. I also dont want her to be tied down to a person who is far away. I did that once and its hard to do. I want her to have a great time in Alabama and I dont want her to have to worry about a person who that far away. She would worry, she would contantly think about it. I dont want that, I want her to be worry free and she will be in grad school and will need to put off of her effort into that. She is damn amazing though. I shouldnt have kissed her though, one of the downsides of that sort of passion and desire is that you tend to think about that person more often than you should and I caught that sickness. Fuck me. Oh well, its not like we are completely invested and who knows how things may play out, perhaps I think too much, which is normally the case. Le sigh.
On to recent events. We all went out Friday night, that was pretty fun. Me, Jane (the aformentioned girl), Dee, Allen, Galyon, Devan, and Henry all went out. We started at Sunspot then moved to Cool Beans. Dee is a girl for Chattown that doesnt know anyone up here, so our common friend Jessica called me and asked if I would take her out and introduce her to Knoxville and to some people. She is pretty fun and beautiful if I may add, without sounding sleezy. Dark mocha skin and even darker black hair with a wonderful sense of humor. Ill definantly see her again. Nothing romantic or anything (at least not now) but she was fun to hang out with and I would like to hangout with her again. I didnt do shit yesterday or today. So yea, aside from Friday, the weekend was booring as shit. I guess I'll hope off for now and do some homework. Peace y'all.