it's been a while....
Well I guess it has been a while, but things have been kinda hectic. Since we moved into our new apartment, things have been going excellent between me and brendan. It's fun having a place of your own rules and discretions. However, I am missing home more and more and i just cant wait to get back there. I got offerred a job at Best Buy for 7.50 an hr but the catch is that if i take it i i only get 2 weeks home in the summer and barely ne time at christmas if i get ne at all (which is unlikely). I am stuck on what to do. Orientation is sat at 11 am and i can show up if i want it, but im leaning towards a no. I know all of you as my friends are prolly like what are u nuts, but i have been weighing my options and as selfish as they may sound, here they are:
why to take it
1.) a lot more money than I will prolly get offered ne where else
2.) it's a chance for me to do something and not be bored
3.) I could use the money
4.) I need a little responsibility i guess
why not to take it
1.) I deperatly need to see my family and friends
2.) I've been working a lot since i was 15 and i need a break where i can just go home and do what i want and see everyone that i want in the time i have off
3.) I'm a student and deserve my breaks just like everyone else and since i am soooo far away then i think im entittled to them
4.) as selfish and immature as this sounds...u have to know where i am coming from: I am 19 years old and just dont wanna be tied down to a job like the one they are gonna give me...i just need a little break right now and i think this could be overkill with summer classes and then going right into another semester again
5.) I need time to enjoy the sun and live for another couple months before i get to serious into jobs like this....i need time to find where i wanna be and what i wanna be and im too stressed even with just classes
ok so those are it: Ive thought long and hard on them all...and its a tough choice but unless they can give me at least another week in the summer, then i don't think i will be happy and it isnt right for me. There's just so much going on. I'm doing OK in school and by ok i mean awfully bad for someone such as myself who has slightly higher standards and pressure on herself(from only herself). I just wanna go away soemwhere...like out of this state and out of NY, i wanna go somewhere tropical or somewhere out of the country. I just need a break and som time to think where it's peaceful and where there's no car alarms going off or bass booming so loud in some dudes car u wake up to it, or the people upstairs whos floors creak so loud and hihg that i have to sleep in my own bed with earplugs in....how bad is that?
tell me im not crazy....:(
well ill have more to tell u after tomarrow....i got 3 biiig packages today from my parents and i only know what's in one of them, the others are a "surprise" im waiting for bren to get here so i can open them and he has to take pics of what i got and my reactons for my rents...ill let ya'll know later
love, manda