i miss you san luis

[puddlewondrful]

i wish i could have my cake and eat it too...

i want to be in san luis and the bay area at the same time. i have grown to like living here. but i love san luis. or, i guess what i believe san luis is to me. i love that. and i miss that. i miss my home. my familiar place. the bay area is becoming familiar to me little by little. i know the san jose area, the lara side of san francisco area, and the pleasanton area. but that is about it. i know every inch of the central coast. and even though i havent lived there for nearly three months now, i still consider it my home. im waiting for pleasanton to become my home. i sit awaiting for that comfortable feeling. and it hasnt come. and i am afraid it never will.

i say the same old shit every single time.

.....was it a mistake for me to move up here?