Hm yes, yes, I do believe you were right
I realized tonight that the reason i was feeling so insufficient ineffective frightened and quite looser-esq was because i had elevated my self to the position of the center of my prayers. Never a good idea. The center of (especially!!!) Our prayers should be the Lord. Not how we feel but what His will is, not what I want but where He wants to guide the delicate and easily broken little thing that is my heart. Not my pain but His Love--His Immense Love. Repentance for my sin only ending in joy of His unending mercy. Nursing of my hurts only ending in the healing safety of His arms. Not me, Him. That seems to me to be where one finds true happiness, maturity, life, joy, peace, love and freedom. Not in you, not about you, Him.
So often when we are attacked we just watch the attack come at us. We just watch ourselves sit in dark and pain, in hurt and loneliness, in chains and fear, doubt and hate. If we hate feeling awful so much then why don't we do something about it? If we really are that frustrated do the only thing that can cure your frustration--let Him. It's not about your pain, it's about His healing and the opportunity you have to see it. Not about your desperation but His Hope, not about how you feel you can't see Him or He wont give or isn't but the fact that no matter what you think or feel He IS and He DOES.
Worship is more than a time for you to replenish, it is first a time for Him.
It's so important for us to help each other. Not in the way i usually hear it talked about. Instead by simply leading a life filled with the simple beauty and strength of Christ. Simply standing up for the broken hearted, making a point of staying honest and pure, and expecting others to do the same. To treat ourselves and others with honesty, respect, and love--even more so when it is rightly earned by honesty, respect, and love.
Just let Him take you.
The End.
So often when we are attacked we just watch the attack come at us. We just watch ourselves sit in dark and pain, in hurt and loneliness, in chains and fear, doubt and hate. If we hate feeling awful so much then why don't we do something about it? If we really are that frustrated do the only thing that can cure your frustration--let Him. It's not about your pain, it's about His healing and the opportunity you have to see it. Not about your desperation but His Hope, not about how you feel you can't see Him or He wont give or isn't but the fact that no matter what you think or feel He IS and He DOES.
Worship is more than a time for you to replenish, it is first a time for Him.
It's so important for us to help each other. Not in the way i usually hear it talked about. Instead by simply leading a life filled with the simple beauty and strength of Christ. Simply standing up for the broken hearted, making a point of staying honest and pure, and expecting others to do the same. To treat ourselves and others with honesty, respect, and love--even more so when it is rightly earned by honesty, respect, and love.
Just let Him take you.
The End.