18 weeks pregnant with #2
I have been feeling a nice boost of energy lately. It could be my excitement for Hoopcamp, it could be my lack of exercise that actually tires me out... either way, I'm enjoying the boost.
I have been feeling warm snuggly feelings lately. Some parents brought in a very, very young - probably newborn - young boy into the Family Fitness gym daycare. I was amazed that babies that young are brought in! I had mixed feelings. Part of me was like, "ALRIGHT... she's getting back into the swing of things." Another part of me was surprised to see a child so young be away from home. And I also kind of felt bad for the girls... a child that small requires a lot of attention and when there are like 15 other toddlers or young children around it doesn't seem right! Maybe its just that I couldn't personally give up my newborn to a young girl at a daycare center. -_-
Zora still has issues there. As long as she can see me she doesn't do too bad. However I am confined to a stair stepper, cycle, or freemotion every time I go so she can still reassuringly look for me. If I'm not in view she cries and cries and never stops until the girls come and get me from wherever I am.
I wonder if I will have an only child issue as much with #2. I don't expect so. #2's, ahem (I am one)... get used to not having everything. Now if only I can train Zora.
I will be watching my brother's kids 2 days a week now so they can save money with babysitting. Zora will get used to sharing, too... which is good. She NEEDS it.
As I have said in forums and some other sites - the name Oxana came to me a few weeks ago. I looked up the name and it means "Not of this world" a "foreign person"... I must be slavic or something because I keep being drawn to these names! Zora, Oxana... when will it end? Never. :)
I also mistakenly called Quentin (nephew), "Harold" today... his back was turned to me and I imaged a little 3 year old son named Harold and fell in love for about 15 seconds. (Mind dialogue: "Ohhh, how cute to have a little Harold!!!!") So I definitely want to call this baby Harold if it is a boy. Harold the 4th! HOW CUTE!
Also cute - Zora is getting so affectionate! She pouts and leans in for a kiss. Sings, "Mommmmy mommy mommy mommy!." She says "EW POOPY" whenever she sees a napkin with anything on it and likes to clean up spills with a towel at the moment they occur. And most importantly, and unlike her 5 year old cousin, she listens sooo well. She'll do anything I say, as long as she understands. I wonder why older kids find it so necessary to defy. Is it in their character? Is it an "all kids do that" kind of thing? People say Zora is a perfect child. They also tell me to not expect the next one to be the same way. Really? I suppose I deserve a problem child. I can take it. Life is suffering, no? At least I know with Zora as an older sister he/she will have all the support in the world.
I only feel this new baby when I am lying on my side in the morning and switch to lying on my back. The baby seems to stay in one place and I feel its butt push against my stomach and protrude from under my belly button. Awww, I did miss this feeling. I wonder if I should be concerned that I don't feel preoccupied with going to the doc's. I haven't really had any checkups other than an initial weigh in and feel-around from the outside. No doppler, nothing... I WANT to hear the heartbeat though.. so I will schedule an appt. before I get too far along. My weight and health feels good overall. I have been trying to be more steady this time and avoid things that would cause me to have any Bartholin cysts like last time. YIKES did I hate those. 2 in 3 months. The world was not kind to me then. I deserve an easy pregnancy without so much weight gain. And so far, so good.
Zora is hugging me to go to sleep now. That's my queue.
I have been feeling warm snuggly feelings lately. Some parents brought in a very, very young - probably newborn - young boy into the Family Fitness gym daycare. I was amazed that babies that young are brought in! I had mixed feelings. Part of me was like, "ALRIGHT... she's getting back into the swing of things." Another part of me was surprised to see a child so young be away from home. And I also kind of felt bad for the girls... a child that small requires a lot of attention and when there are like 15 other toddlers or young children around it doesn't seem right! Maybe its just that I couldn't personally give up my newborn to a young girl at a daycare center. -_-
Zora still has issues there. As long as she can see me she doesn't do too bad. However I am confined to a stair stepper, cycle, or freemotion every time I go so she can still reassuringly look for me. If I'm not in view she cries and cries and never stops until the girls come and get me from wherever I am.
I wonder if I will have an only child issue as much with #2. I don't expect so. #2's, ahem (I am one)... get used to not having everything. Now if only I can train Zora.
I will be watching my brother's kids 2 days a week now so they can save money with babysitting. Zora will get used to sharing, too... which is good. She NEEDS it.
As I have said in forums and some other sites - the name Oxana came to me a few weeks ago. I looked up the name and it means "Not of this world" a "foreign person"... I must be slavic or something because I keep being drawn to these names! Zora, Oxana... when will it end? Never. :)
I also mistakenly called Quentin (nephew), "Harold" today... his back was turned to me and I imaged a little 3 year old son named Harold and fell in love for about 15 seconds. (Mind dialogue: "Ohhh, how cute to have a little Harold!!!!") So I definitely want to call this baby Harold if it is a boy. Harold the 4th! HOW CUTE!
Also cute - Zora is getting so affectionate! She pouts and leans in for a kiss. Sings, "Mommmmy mommy mommy mommy!." She says "EW POOPY" whenever she sees a napkin with anything on it and likes to clean up spills with a towel at the moment they occur. And most importantly, and unlike her 5 year old cousin, she listens sooo well. She'll do anything I say, as long as she understands. I wonder why older kids find it so necessary to defy. Is it in their character? Is it an "all kids do that" kind of thing? People say Zora is a perfect child. They also tell me to not expect the next one to be the same way. Really? I suppose I deserve a problem child. I can take it. Life is suffering, no? At least I know with Zora as an older sister he/she will have all the support in the world.
I only feel this new baby when I am lying on my side in the morning and switch to lying on my back. The baby seems to stay in one place and I feel its butt push against my stomach and protrude from under my belly button. Awww, I did miss this feeling. I wonder if I should be concerned that I don't feel preoccupied with going to the doc's. I haven't really had any checkups other than an initial weigh in and feel-around from the outside. No doppler, nothing... I WANT to hear the heartbeat though.. so I will schedule an appt. before I get too far along. My weight and health feels good overall. I have been trying to be more steady this time and avoid things that would cause me to have any Bartholin cysts like last time. YIKES did I hate those. 2 in 3 months. The world was not kind to me then. I deserve an easy pregnancy without so much weight gain. And so far, so good.
Zora is hugging me to go to sleep now. That's my queue.