States of Mind
I'm in one of my favourite moods today, I like it when I'm calm or focused, today I'm very focused. I can't say on exactly what but I got up at 7am, I had breakfast properly, it's Hayley's last day and therefore I'm doing all the proper organising and working - I enjoy it when I'm properly busy and managing rather than just working - and I've had pasta for lunch.
Basically I like to be in control of things, I can be a control wanter (freak would be unfair) but I don't have to all the time, since I stopped being the proper manager here so much pressure has dropped which sometimes means I'm unaffective, today I am not, today I am awesome.
hehe.
If you want to know my proper 'personality' I'd say I like to get to know people before letting them know me, the proper me, I can definitely have mood swings - ups and downs in very quick time - I can not listen and talk to you when I'm being selfish and I do go on rants.
I don't know why I'm having a self-review today because I still really care about my close friends, I will do anything to help you if you need help, I will buy you presents and like to spend time and money on you. But I do need my own space from time to time, I like 'me' time.
I think I'm doing this because I'm trying to re-evaluate and let go of some things I've been clinging onto for a while, some people and some of it places, things I thought I was going to do but time and whatnot has meant everything has got to be approached differently.
I don't see as a bad thing but I need to focus my attention completely on my course and where I want it to take ME, outside influences not regarded anymore, I need this plan, I need to know that come Summer 2008 I'll be going somewhere else.
Thank you LJ for your time :-) x