i miss you!
wow, i havent even left yet and i already miss him.... this sucks. i dont want to leave.... :( i finally see how special this is, and i really dont want to be gone from it. this is amazing! i love him to bits, hes a guy, and only human, but somehow he is superman. he has his annoying mannerisms, but somehow i love them. i love how he makes me feel, even when im not with him. he stopped by on his way to work today to see how i was. so sweet! and of course he had to mention he was at a fire last night for 6 hours, i dont want to know. i hate thinking about him going in and out of fires saving people and putting his life at risk. i dont know why i am trying to do the same thing, but oh well. i figured out that i really could never live without him. it would be impossible. not because he is the one i am close to, but because were close, we are such good friends and he is really my other half. you can't work without your other half. it doesnt happen. and every time i am down or sad or anything, he just reminds me of what we have. i mean i really want him to show me he loves me more, but honestly, i am amazed he shows me this much. it is the coolest thing in the world! i never really doubt him, i did once, but then i realized he was on shift so he couldnt talk. i dont doubt him anymore. i know he loves me. i feel so selfish when i am with him, he does every thing for me. i wish i could show him just how much i love him back! unconditional. the only way to go! i cant wait for the weekend kisses...... ;) they are the best. i finally feel better too.... yay! anyw ays, back to packing for Texas... i cant bring tank-tops! i am so mad! oh well.... its only 8 days..... loves to all!