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i find myself checking my mail praying for an email from him. but i never get one. then i get sad. but why would he write me? what if i were just to go up to him and be like "GAH i have a huge crush on you..." but then i think hmmm yeah do that because it's worked so well in the past. then i get pissed because things in the past are holding me back from things i want to do now. and then i get pissed because if he wanted to ask me out he would have. and then i get pissed because people are like "he's just shy"...thats a load of horse shit. he's just not that into me and i need to realize it. then that makes me sad because i have a huge crush and the cycle starts again. WTF? maybe it's just close to my period? fuck fuck fuck.