Got a little bit of something ( God Its better than nothing) - Oneshot
Title: Got a little bit of something (God, Its better than nothing.)
Author: dudelikecool
Rating: G, i think?
Character(s)/Pairing(s): One sided Puck/Kurt, mentions of Kurt/Blaine
Genre: Romance/Angst?
Warning: None that i can think of, it goes off canon quite a bit.
Spoilers: None that i can think of.
Disclaimer: Not mine, just borrowing.
Author Notes: Not Beta-ed. Title is from 3am by Matchbox Twenty, which i was listening to while i wrote this. First time writing Puckurt, or any glee fic in a long time.
Summary: Noah Puckerman falls in love with Kurt Hummel on a Sunday.
Word Count:584
Noah Puckerman falls in love with Kurt Hummel on a Sunday. There are no fireworks, or violins, or anything special whatsoever. Theres just him and Kurt, sitting in the living room of the Hummel house watching crappy dramas about doctors.
Theres this sense of…awkwardly quiet sadness because, in a few weeks, Kurt is heading away to some fancy doctor school (Yale, or Harvard, or somewhere equally impressive and unreachable to Puck). To others, to people like Rachel…or Blaine, it seemed like something strange for Kurt to decide to do. But Puck understood. He knows the exact moment that Kurt decided this was what he wanted, needed to do with his life.
When you almost lose a parent, you get that urge, to help people. To make sure it doesn’t happen to another kid some day. And Kurt almost lost both. So it had started as a child, with his mother, dying too young because some douchebag decided to drive home after one too many drinks. And it ended with his father, almost being taken away by his heart. Its not a strange idea, to Puck, that perfectly prim and proper Kurt would want to get his hands dirty, touch the gross squishy bits that make up people. Kurt was kind of a badass like that, anyway, he never did what people expected him to do.
And what makes it more beautiful, more special a thing in Pucks eyes, is that its not just that sense of duty, its more for Kurt than that. Because his eyes light up sometimes, and Puck knows, Kurt was always meant to do this.
The Doctor shows had been Pucks idea, though, and even though he knew they were fake and possibly not at all like what being a doctor would be like, he felt like it would connect him somehow, that he would know now what Kurt was getting himself into, and during late nights while Kurt stays up all night learning amazing things, he’ll remember this, remember Puck and their quiet sadness together. He would remember Puck, and how Puck had sat with him at his fathers bedside when everyone else had gone away, how Puck bought DVDs of really crappy and unrealistic doctor shows, and demanded they watch every episode. How Puck had gotten caught up in the epic love story of Izzy and Denny, and maybe even cried. He would remember Puck, and not Blaine, who did none of these things.
And its that unexplainable jealousy, that need to be better than anyone else in Kurts life, to be more supportive and for Kurt to love him best. Its that, and he realizes, he loves that crazy kid who had crawled under his skin and made him into a better person, crawled in and didn't let go until they were friends. He loves him, but he can never have him.
And thats okay, he thinks, he doesn’t need more than this, more than Kurts insistence that he visit, since he was only going to be an hour away from Kurt in the University he was going to, and “It would be silly if you didn’t, you can crash on my couch, and eat all my food. It’ll be just like old times.”
Kurt smiles, and laughs at the screen, a carefree laugh, beautiful in that way only Kurt can be. And Puck thinks, “Its okay. You don’t have to love me back, just please never stop laughing.”