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[puckerz16]

My wireless in my house is not working so I am never on the computer anymore. Lately I don't have enough time to go online anyways. I went to Mohegan Sun the other day with Matt we lost our life savings..ok not really but like $160 for me about $130 for him. haha It was amazing though we had so much fun. Work is good except I might have to start floating to the other programs (houses) around here because they are low staff and right now the house I am at is over staffed and we don't have that many clients....this means I might have to go to the boys programs. This scares me beyond belief. The boys are restrained like every day. EVERY DAY! What are the chances that while I am there there isn't a restraint?!?! I am having a nervous break down haha. Also I have only been working there for like a month, I am still learning.  I am going to go into these other houses and they are going to assume I know everything. ugh I hate this. On the other hand my Supervisor told me I was doing amazing and that despite me only being there a month and still in the orientation period she is going to make me shift leader. Which means that while an assistant supervisor or supervisor is not around I am in charge of running our house and structure. So am I assistant to the Assistant supervisor?! haha anyways that scares me as well.

Right now I am on my house computer. I can't help but instantely feel like I am 15 years old again using this computer. When I used to have a billion instant messages going on at once and I would have to click out of everyone everytime my mom or dad came around. Those were the days. Sometimes I really miss those days even though my life is better in so many ways right now.

I am getting too old.