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I am feeling intense stress right now. I have applied to 2 different places right now. I sent out my resume and all that crap to one on Tuesday and just call a lady about my 2nd one. I am meeting with her tomorrow and it sounds like a lot of fun working with 3-6year olds at a preschool but it's not doing what i really want to be doing. It is more like teaching and babysitting fun yes because children are adorable but not exactly what i was hoping it was. another thing is that i would be out of a job during the summer because of school hours and she seems very nice but like i could lose my job at any moment so its not something i think i can depend on. she said she would decide if she wants to keep me full time but she takes a long time to get that feeling. so if 4 months from now i have been working there and she decides not to keep me i just wasted my life. i don't like that.
the other one i know i would like because it is what i really want to do but not 100% sure of all the details and ya not bilingual either.
i think most of my stress comes from having to meet this lady tomorrow and work with the children but in the back of my head know i have another opportunity that i want more. so do i tell her about it? or just say i'm sorry this isn't going to work for me which is the main cause of my stress. i have 4 months to keep looking for a job so it's not like is the end of the world if i get neither or choose not to take either but i would really like to not be working at kohls when i graduate. if i am then so be it but i'd rather not.
I went to bed last night with the most intense migraine i have had for at like 2 years.
screw growing up.
the other one i know i would like because it is what i really want to do but not 100% sure of all the details and ya not bilingual either.
i think most of my stress comes from having to meet this lady tomorrow and work with the children but in the back of my head know i have another opportunity that i want more. so do i tell her about it? or just say i'm sorry this isn't going to work for me which is the main cause of my stress. i have 4 months to keep looking for a job so it's not like is the end of the world if i get neither or choose not to take either but i would really like to not be working at kohls when i graduate. if i am then so be it but i'd rather not.
I went to bed last night with the most intense migraine i have had for at like 2 years.
screw growing up.