Jun 09, 2005 19:59
as i sit in my room and think i relize that i cant explain why i feel the need to leave this world when i have friends and family. i know that even surrounded by love and people who care for me i just want to escape leave all this pain behind. i feel so alone in a room crowded and full. the laughing smiling just brings more pain.She said that mine and ris love for each other is something to lived for, I know that what I feel but my beautiful dragon will not never say. so how do u survive your world is spiraling out of your control you dont. you grin and bare it till the moment for your death comes, with nothing left to return, letting the nerezza consumed your spirit and washed yours existance from this earth. so how do u try and make right the wrongs you have caused, u leave behind what you thought and all the se soltanto, if only i had said this or done that, told her how much i cared for her and how i just wanted to hold her but fear will destroy you. I say my goodbyes during the next two years for I will be forgoten like the snow at the beginning of the summer to the all that i love I wish all the happiness for I says my goodbyes one to the time. with all my love
CNG