im a really bad bad person
ok i went with kc on sunday to her uncles funeral and when i saw what it did to her and her dad it just hurt sooooo bad, kc has only met her uncle twice and i we been at each others houses every weekend foe five years when i wrote that letter to kc i said i wouldn't promise not to die by my own hand but i have promised to make sure that she is happy and set up to live her life. kc might not be able to have kids so i said i would give birth for her twice so she can have a family, and at the same time i'm leaving a part of me behind in her kids so it works both ways. i really love kc, she has always been there for me and always will. see when i die she wont have to do anything my stuff will be packed so she wont have to dwell on me dying and it will be that much easier for her to continue to live her life happy and content. so i'm not all that selfish...just a little.