Today is day #8,638
8,638 days I have been alive...according to a time calculator.
Today I read more about different birth options, with my long time interest in home birth.
Which reminds me of my dream I had last night...
(Each night this week I have went to bed sad, thinking about my hospital experience and how bad I want to have a natural birth next time.)
My dream was healing...
I'm in a hospital. There are about four other women laying around me, all pregnant and laboring. I am talking to my nurse who came into my room and I said things like"This time things have to be different." I can't remember all I said, but she nodded in agreement. The one thing that sticks out to me is saying"Oh, and this time, you will not put an iv in me."
In the dream, she agrees. All the women around me demand a revolution to this whole process. I think the final part was each of us leaving the hospital, to be free-a feeling of a gentle yet powerful revolution taking place.
I don't want the doctors to be in charge,bossing me around-I wanted them there in case something bad was going to happen-not to create bad things to happen based on their own need to avoid a lawsuit and a bad day at work. I think there can be a better way, if we just were able to take the "Business" out of the hospital experience-I think it would be a lot better for all of us.
In a more perfect world...
Today I read more about different birth options, with my long time interest in home birth.
Which reminds me of my dream I had last night...
(Each night this week I have went to bed sad, thinking about my hospital experience and how bad I want to have a natural birth next time.)
My dream was healing...
I'm in a hospital. There are about four other women laying around me, all pregnant and laboring. I am talking to my nurse who came into my room and I said things like"This time things have to be different." I can't remember all I said, but she nodded in agreement. The one thing that sticks out to me is saying"Oh, and this time, you will not put an iv in me."
In the dream, she agrees. All the women around me demand a revolution to this whole process. I think the final part was each of us leaving the hospital, to be free-a feeling of a gentle yet powerful revolution taking place.
I don't want the doctors to be in charge,bossing me around-I wanted them there in case something bad was going to happen-not to create bad things to happen based on their own need to avoid a lawsuit and a bad day at work. I think there can be a better way, if we just were able to take the "Business" out of the hospital experience-I think it would be a lot better for all of us.
In a more perfect world...