Jul 15, 2004 12:37
You all should already know why doing this is bad. I didn't get a hang over or puke, but I can't remember what I did (or who I did it with) last night, or how much I drank. All I remember was stubbling back into my cabbin at 4am unable to remember who I was. I just ripped off my clothes (bet you ladies love that) and went to bed.
There was no excuse for what I did last night, but there is a reason I did it. See, yesterday, I got to find out that because of two people's manipulation, i tore a hole in my family that can never be completely repaired. While everyone moves on, no one concentraits on fixing the problem, because the only two who can won't.
Just in case you bother to check this site Dad, I am so ashamed of you and Mom I cannot express it in words. You used me as the knife that you backstabbed your only family with, and obviously your manipulation doesn't stop there. No, anyone with a heart would stop there.
You bastards have tried to mold me all my life, which means I've never even been able to realize who I am or what I want with my life. People burn eternally in hell for less. It's my life, and if I want a different goddamned degree than you do, then I'll fucking do it.
P.S. In case it hasn't occured to you yet, no, I don't want you paying for my College. But I do want my family savings bonds (probably thought I forgot about those, eh?) and my account simply put in my name.
P.P.S. I'm sorry for getting this off my chest in front of my friends, but at least I have the goddamn balls to put it in fucking English.