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so, how exactly is one supposed to function when someone that they love is actively in the process of dying?
i think and worry and feel guilty about it and that makes me feel sick.
then i try to think about other things and not talk to anyone about it, which does make me feel slightly better, but then i just feel even more guilty for thinking about anything else.
and now i feel guilty for even being selfish enough to be so preoccupied with my own feelings when he's going through so much more than i can even fathom.
i hope nobody actually reads my livejournal.
i think and worry and feel guilty about it and that makes me feel sick.
then i try to think about other things and not talk to anyone about it, which does make me feel slightly better, but then i just feel even more guilty for thinking about anything else.
and now i feel guilty for even being selfish enough to be so preoccupied with my own feelings when he's going through so much more than i can even fathom.
i hope nobody actually reads my livejournal.