Today...Was a very interesting day

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Today was a very interesting day. I think I've been tormented so long, that even the brightest of bright spots no longer shimmer to me. It's sad really...but I've spent so long being depressed and upset, and just lonely, that its almost comforting now to go home and cry. I passed my driver's test today, heard some promising news, and won a soccer game, and still, at the end of it all I feel like I need a big hug... Plotz needs people for the february 14th game, which sucks because not only is it valentines day, its twirp night, AND my soccer game...I think I'm going to support the team and just show for the game, unless something interesting happens soon. Twirp...Twirp. I just can't handle much more of the sputter about it all, I think everyone should just go as friends, and save the hooking up for at the dance. I mean, people have dates and already those dates are starting to lose intrest and already fooling with other people, i've heard at least 3 separate stories of this. If everyone just went solo, then hooked up at the dance, no one would feel bad, because no one would feel like their date owes them something, and no one would feel guilty, because they wouldnt' have anything to owe. I guess just watching everything as someone who doesn't have a date makes me kinda an outsider, and i'm spotting where possible trouble is going to ensue come twirp night. I'd rather just not see any guys getting bummed, and even more so girls crying, because it happens to often. ALL THAT, or I'm just dissapointed cuz I didn't get a date...probably the latter of the two. BAH....its late...too much to think about, new classes tomorrow ='s 3 days of syllabus's, getting to know you games, and learning rules. Bah fucking humbug

You're window shopping for love, when you should be in the store.