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My life has recently taken a roller coaster ride. It seems in the past 6 months I have managed to encounter EVERY single emotion known to a woman. Frustration, angst, anger, hopelessness, hopefullness, bliss, guilt, excitement, dissapointment... the list goes on and on.
Currently, I am feeling Awe.
I discovered on Monday that for the 3 rd time, I am about to become a mother.
It's been 5 days and I am still in awe. I NEVER EVER EVER EVER EXPECTED this to happen. I think of all the years I have spent not able to get pregnant. I think of all the time i have recently spent being told that it will be difficult to get pregnant. I think of my last conversation with my dr and how she told me my body flushed my syst from my ovarie and that if i wanted she would send a letter to a fertility specialist. I think about Lee and how he has no children and he is such a good father to mine. I think....
WOW. I'm going to have a baby.
and I think...
FUCKIN RIGHTS! I get to quit my job!!!! (and i did on Thursday)
Now I have a new range of feelings. I'm excited. I'm hopefull. I'm blessed. I'm protective. I'm released. I'm relaxed. I'm happy. I'm comfortable. I'm where I want to be.
My job has taken away my life. This baby gives it back to me... guilt free.
Currently, I am feeling Awe.
I discovered on Monday that for the 3 rd time, I am about to become a mother.
It's been 5 days and I am still in awe. I NEVER EVER EVER EVER EXPECTED this to happen. I think of all the years I have spent not able to get pregnant. I think of all the time i have recently spent being told that it will be difficult to get pregnant. I think of my last conversation with my dr and how she told me my body flushed my syst from my ovarie and that if i wanted she would send a letter to a fertility specialist. I think about Lee and how he has no children and he is such a good father to mine. I think....
WOW. I'm going to have a baby.
and I think...
FUCKIN RIGHTS! I get to quit my job!!!! (and i did on Thursday)
Now I have a new range of feelings. I'm excited. I'm hopefull. I'm blessed. I'm protective. I'm released. I'm relaxed. I'm happy. I'm comfortable. I'm where I want to be.
My job has taken away my life. This baby gives it back to me... guilt free.