with the sunlight comes a dreamer's battle

[ptuckitpatriot]

could you have shown me the way?
in and amongst derailed pathways,
overgrown with doubt and desperation
pain impedes my resperations,
im dead to you.

lost from your sight and mind,
led and discovered only by the blind.
show me how to breathe again!
as only you can, please don't fail me!

take me to where only dreams can go.
save me from the agonizing throes of this dreary life.
so full of strife,
and for others i can't complain.
i've done the same

but stop now and i'll bring about the change
you need to see in me to continue as before,
an open sore and wound still healing.
reeling from the madness within.
its forced a grin, and brushes past my face
into an eternity of loss and grace.

as ive shown you part of what could have been
only to be rejected.
the heavens stop and call me affected,
by this disease of mortality, so constantly ending
myself and my love to the grave are impending
to go, to fail, to try again
ive fought with those demons and resisted them.

oh if it weren't for the shame,
in this game of intolerance, unacceptance, and blame.
if all were to prove inconsequential
id be right there in the midst of the pivotal
drowning my anger away.
with the light of day ill be brave.