Weird
Well today was sort of weird. For one thing, I actually woke up on time to go to work, and so I didn't miss it AGAIN. That was nice, but I think the Vicodin was still affecting me or something because I was very loopy. It was like I had no inhibitions or something, I don't know. Laura noticed something was up and was like, "What the hell? Are you high?" Yes, Laura, indeed I was. Though it seemed to wear off after two hours of Government Documents.
I actually got annoyed with my Biology prof today because he repeated the same damn health stuff AGAIN. We got it man! Gah. Well anyway, I went to English and our professor told us basically that she was hungover. Wow. And she's Indian. I know that's sort of a stereotype to think they don't overdrink, but still it was a surprise. She had "too many bottles of wine" apparently. And to make it worse, she hates Wordsworth and so it was hard for her to concentrate.
And lastly, I've had this weird depression/self-destruction thing lately, and I don't know why. I feel the urge all the time to do something to myself, get rid of myself. But I just don't have a guts. Sometimes, like now, I just want to delete everyone I've created on the RP sites, disable MSN Messenger, and leave online life forever. It's not the people, hell no. Just something about it depresses me for some reason. Plus my schoolwork's suffering. But at the same time I don't know if I would survive. . . so basically, it sucks. I try to pretend to be happy, but sometimes it's hard and I slip. Which also sucks. To quote Lauren: "I suck at life".
I actually got annoyed with my Biology prof today because he repeated the same damn health stuff AGAIN. We got it man! Gah. Well anyway, I went to English and our professor told us basically that she was hungover. Wow. And she's Indian. I know that's sort of a stereotype to think they don't overdrink, but still it was a surprise. She had "too many bottles of wine" apparently. And to make it worse, she hates Wordsworth and so it was hard for her to concentrate.
And lastly, I've had this weird depression/self-destruction thing lately, and I don't know why. I feel the urge all the time to do something to myself, get rid of myself. But I just don't have a guts. Sometimes, like now, I just want to delete everyone I've created on the RP sites, disable MSN Messenger, and leave online life forever. It's not the people, hell no. Just something about it depresses me for some reason. Plus my schoolwork's suffering. But at the same time I don't know if I would survive. . . so basically, it sucks. I try to pretend to be happy, but sometimes it's hard and I slip. Which also sucks. To quote Lauren: "I suck at life".