Wow
It's been such a long time since I last posted. Last year was extremely rough for my family, especially for my mom. Thankfully, this year has been okay so far. I'm in a relationship but I think it's wreaking havoc on my abilities and trying to develop them. I've told my boyfriend about myself but I don't think he quite understands even though he says he shares an interest. I also don't feel he understands that sometimes I want to be alone because of what I am but he is a gentle person and I don't want to be abrasive and tell him to just leave me alone...that he doesn't always have to spend every free moment with me. Sometimes I wish for him to break up with me so I can go back to being alone. I'm beginning to doubt myself again and I feel like I can't go to my one friend because he seems genuinely happy now and I don't want to bother him with my insecurities and such. *sigh* I don't like being a downer.