T_T
I feel like I'm losing myself again. It seems like everyone is trying to make me something I'm not and I have no way to keep them from doing so. No matter what i say, it seems like they won't listen. I haven't been meditating or writing in this journal. I've stopped reading the Bible to try to understand certain things. Even my prayers have been lackluster. I feel like just completely giving up sometimes. I feel so constrained and it is like no one wants to encourage growth of my true self, especially my abilities which I know have taken a hard hit from all that has been happening. I just don't know what to do.
*sigh* I'm going to try to meditate somewhat tonight...try to put up a shield or something. And I'm the type of person who, even though I know I wouldn't be bothering God by talking to him and telling him what's bothering me, I still feel like he has "better things to do" than listen to me whine about my life. My troubles are extremely trivial when compared to problems other people have. Every now and then I'll just start talking but at times like these, I shy away from saying anything.
Hopefully this will pass and I can return to my old self.
*sigh* I'm going to try to meditate somewhat tonight...try to put up a shield or something. And I'm the type of person who, even though I know I wouldn't be bothering God by talking to him and telling him what's bothering me, I still feel like he has "better things to do" than listen to me whine about my life. My troubles are extremely trivial when compared to problems other people have. Every now and then I'll just start talking but at times like these, I shy away from saying anything.
Hopefully this will pass and I can return to my old self.