uuuhhhh times two
but, a really excellent weekend. i always get extra appreciation for this place when i show it to someone new who is dazzled by it. the fact that i start to take it for granted, but even then marvel at how amazing it is that i can live and school here, demonstrates how much i really love it. that's the test, i guess. if you take it for granted and still can't get over the greatness of something, you know.
i keep letting my eyes rove to my well-stuffed bookshelf and all the things i want to read and do and don't. because i have classwork, and when i don't have classwork, i want to knit, or pretend-socialize by typing relatively shallow short messages back and forth through the internet, which doesn't actually work very well in my room, or watch numb-brain tv WHILE knitting and typing. i'm not like my mom, my eyes and twitchy body just can't take all reading all the time.
purist radiohead fans, you are wrong. the eraser is an excellent album. solo projects aren't supposed to be the same as the band. and yes, solo projects are actually supposed to be rather inwardly-focused and thereby emo-fied, because that's what happens when you're a human and do anything solo. so there.
i know i'm supposed to be doing similarly inwardly-focused things, working on stuff as a solo personhood-project, and i'm not sure if i'm doing them or not. i'm probably not, because that would be scary, and i'm a person, so i'd avoid that, unless it's being allowed to happen especially because i'm not looking too closely. sometimes i become very almost sure that analysis, rhetoric, and indeed reason as a whole are what make people spin in circles. as if as reasonless creatures (whether animals are such or not, as i've no interest in deciding) we would be not necessarily suffer less, but be DOING something. as if you can't be doing something present tense if you're thinking about doing something ambiguously present/future tense.
fuck, that's it, no more hanging out with people who take philosophy classes or read similar books. it's a mandate, i tell you, i'm going to make myself a new group of friends. people who major in business, and computer science, and coldly concrete things like that, who are also boring people. OR i could make myself a flock of fairies, thoughtforms, whatever you like to call them, and they wouldn't ask any questions either! they might be more fun.
or i could just stop bein such a biiiitch and read my reading for tomorrow's section which i'm procrastinating.
i keep letting my eyes rove to my well-stuffed bookshelf and all the things i want to read and do and don't. because i have classwork, and when i don't have classwork, i want to knit, or pretend-socialize by typing relatively shallow short messages back and forth through the internet, which doesn't actually work very well in my room, or watch numb-brain tv WHILE knitting and typing. i'm not like my mom, my eyes and twitchy body just can't take all reading all the time.
purist radiohead fans, you are wrong. the eraser is an excellent album. solo projects aren't supposed to be the same as the band. and yes, solo projects are actually supposed to be rather inwardly-focused and thereby emo-fied, because that's what happens when you're a human and do anything solo. so there.
i know i'm supposed to be doing similarly inwardly-focused things, working on stuff as a solo personhood-project, and i'm not sure if i'm doing them or not. i'm probably not, because that would be scary, and i'm a person, so i'd avoid that, unless it's being allowed to happen especially because i'm not looking too closely. sometimes i become very almost sure that analysis, rhetoric, and indeed reason as a whole are what make people spin in circles. as if as reasonless creatures (whether animals are such or not, as i've no interest in deciding) we would be not necessarily suffer less, but be DOING something. as if you can't be doing something present tense if you're thinking about doing something ambiguously present/future tense.
fuck, that's it, no more hanging out with people who take philosophy classes or read similar books. it's a mandate, i tell you, i'm going to make myself a new group of friends. people who major in business, and computer science, and coldly concrete things like that, who are also boring people. OR i could make myself a flock of fairies, thoughtforms, whatever you like to call them, and they wouldn't ask any questions either! they might be more fun.
or i could just stop bein such a biiiitch and read my reading for tomorrow's section which i'm procrastinating.