DAMMIT!!
Ugh! I need to vent. So me and Sergio wanted to be something together for Halloween - you know, match or whatever. Well we're having a hard time finding stuff, or at least I am, because he doesn't like anything! And I keep throwing ideas out there and he's like "No." I'm getting frustrated because
1) He keeps saying no to all my ideas and it's fucking irritating, and
2) He's fucking jealous! Okay. I was thinking of being a nurse, or a naughty cop, or a french maid, or something like that. But he doesn't like the fact that those costumes are short because then that means that guys will be checking me out. I say, "So what?" What is the big deal anyway? I mean, it's not like I'm even gonna notice anyway, and I don't pay any attention to them, because my attention is on him. Who the fuck cares what anyone else says or thinks? Well he does. He can't stand it when a guy even looks at me. And he asks me why it doesn't bother me, so I try to explain to him that I just don't care. If they look, fine whatever, because they're not gonna do anything anyway, especially not with him around, and I'm not gonna do anything either - whether he's around or not!
It's getting to the point where I'm like fuck it. I'll just be whatever I want and he'll be whatever he wants. Fuck matching. It won't work. It's just that this is our first Halloween together and we both wanted to match. But how the hell can we when he doesn't like any of my ideas? I even got a list from the internet and printed it out and showed it to him - it was a long list too, and he marked like 5 things on there that he liked! Out of that whole list he only picked 5!? What the fuck. He's so picky! And then the stuff he does like, I don't like that much, that or I can't find the costume! For instance, we were thinking of being Bonnie & Clyde, but I unfortunately can't find a Bonnie costume. And we're running out of time - some costumes are already gone at some places, and I don't wanna spend $50 on a fucking costume that I'm only gonna wear once anyway.
And he's being a jerk about the whole thing - and then he jumps to conclusions on the phone. Like if my phone dies, he assumes I hung up on him. And before that, he called me but I was in a bad area so I didn't even get his call - then later my phone said I have one new voicemail. So I check it. And it's him, saying "Why do you have to reject my call?" I told him to get rid of his jump-to-conclusions mat (anyone who has seen Office Space will understand the jump-to-conclusions mat). He's just being such a jerk about the whole thing and he's like yelling at me and stuff and being mean on the phone I'm getting sick of it. He was like "Look, I don't know if you still wanna see me today because I'm in a bad mood right now." and I'm like "Of course I still wanna see you, why wouldn't I wanna see you?" And he's like "I'm sorry, I was talking!" I'm like "Okay, SORRY!" Jeez! He's just being really rude. I told him "I still wanna see you, but the tone of your voice makes it sound like you don't wanna see me." And he got defensive and I guess he got mad cuz I said that - but it's not MY fault! And I'm not saying he doesn't want to see me, I said he makes it SOUND that way. There's a difference.
I left the mall today almost in tears because I was so pissed off and it's making me feel shitty. It's been like this for the past few days. I'm getting really annoyed. I wanna just dress up with my friends now.
I miss my friends. I haven't seen them in a while, it's been too long. Suzan and Shayla have jobs working 2nd shift, so I never get to see them, and Amanda is at school. God it's so fucking frustrating. Maybe if I still saw them as much as I did before me and Sergio wouldn't be fighting so much. I hate this. I hate fighting. We always fight over stupid things too!
I'd like for us to match but if we don't that's okay, at least we'll both be whatever we want to be! But I know that if I dress up in a sexy costume I'm just gonna hear him bitch about it! What the hell!
1) He keeps saying no to all my ideas and it's fucking irritating, and
2) He's fucking jealous! Okay. I was thinking of being a nurse, or a naughty cop, or a french maid, or something like that. But he doesn't like the fact that those costumes are short because then that means that guys will be checking me out. I say, "So what?" What is the big deal anyway? I mean, it's not like I'm even gonna notice anyway, and I don't pay any attention to them, because my attention is on him. Who the fuck cares what anyone else says or thinks? Well he does. He can't stand it when a guy even looks at me. And he asks me why it doesn't bother me, so I try to explain to him that I just don't care. If they look, fine whatever, because they're not gonna do anything anyway, especially not with him around, and I'm not gonna do anything either - whether he's around or not!
It's getting to the point where I'm like fuck it. I'll just be whatever I want and he'll be whatever he wants. Fuck matching. It won't work. It's just that this is our first Halloween together and we both wanted to match. But how the hell can we when he doesn't like any of my ideas? I even got a list from the internet and printed it out and showed it to him - it was a long list too, and he marked like 5 things on there that he liked! Out of that whole list he only picked 5!? What the fuck. He's so picky! And then the stuff he does like, I don't like that much, that or I can't find the costume! For instance, we were thinking of being Bonnie & Clyde, but I unfortunately can't find a Bonnie costume. And we're running out of time - some costumes are already gone at some places, and I don't wanna spend $50 on a fucking costume that I'm only gonna wear once anyway.
And he's being a jerk about the whole thing - and then he jumps to conclusions on the phone. Like if my phone dies, he assumes I hung up on him. And before that, he called me but I was in a bad area so I didn't even get his call - then later my phone said I have one new voicemail. So I check it. And it's him, saying "Why do you have to reject my call?" I told him to get rid of his jump-to-conclusions mat (anyone who has seen Office Space will understand the jump-to-conclusions mat). He's just being such a jerk about the whole thing and he's like yelling at me and stuff and being mean on the phone I'm getting sick of it. He was like "Look, I don't know if you still wanna see me today because I'm in a bad mood right now." and I'm like "Of course I still wanna see you, why wouldn't I wanna see you?" And he's like "I'm sorry, I was talking!" I'm like "Okay, SORRY!" Jeez! He's just being really rude. I told him "I still wanna see you, but the tone of your voice makes it sound like you don't wanna see me." And he got defensive and I guess he got mad cuz I said that - but it's not MY fault! And I'm not saying he doesn't want to see me, I said he makes it SOUND that way. There's a difference.
I left the mall today almost in tears because I was so pissed off and it's making me feel shitty. It's been like this for the past few days. I'm getting really annoyed. I wanna just dress up with my friends now.
I miss my friends. I haven't seen them in a while, it's been too long. Suzan and Shayla have jobs working 2nd shift, so I never get to see them, and Amanda is at school. God it's so fucking frustrating. Maybe if I still saw them as much as I did before me and Sergio wouldn't be fighting so much. I hate this. I hate fighting. We always fight over stupid things too!
I'd like for us to match but if we don't that's okay, at least we'll both be whatever we want to be! But I know that if I dress up in a sexy costume I'm just gonna hear him bitch about it! What the hell!