I´m such a jerk >.>
I don´t desurve to live or breathe for that matters x.x Me and my mom had a fight today on the phone!, I can´t believe i was such a idiot to her, i mean i was really mean to her ;___; she has it tough enough and here comes I the stupid daughter who doesn´t have a brain. and well i´m to proud to say i´m sorry to GHAAAAAAAAAAAAA i hate my self so much!! *bang the head to the desk* If she only knew how sorry i am for saying the stuff i did, i don´t know what my problem is, i have been in a shitty and i mean REALLY shitty mood latley :S i´ve been cranky and ive been like roaring to people O.o whats up with that?? and i have no energy to anything, and i don´t have any life energy either. If i could i would be laying in bed all day just sleeping my life away! i can´t see anything bright or fun right now in my life. I am so depressed and it´s sad i mean C´om i have everything!!!!!!!!!! I have a very nice flat and lovley friends, and deeeaaaaar family ♥ and i have the school and yah everything! byt why am i not happy?? whats missing in my life? I think personaly it´s the love :/ Love from a person, now frendly love, love love from someone who loves me and who i love. I haven´t feelt anything like that in over 2 years, i mean Okay hahah David?? i was the one who were inlove with him and he dididn´t feel anything for me so i didin´t get to feel anything there x.x I need someone who loves me and who i can love back! but who the hell is that gonna be?? O.o i don´t feel anything for anyone right now :S I need someone to help me out here!! ANYONE?? is anyone in my position? or am i all alone in this? oh well hopefully i will have some fun tomorrow when Miche is coming over, we are gonna have some beers and watch Pablo Fransisco bits and peaces ^^ i love that show it always cracks me up!. oh well i think i just crowl down in the sofa and watch a movie or something and eat some pineapple from the jar x.x ate the ice cream earlier so :/ ehum.. there is no ice cream left XDDD