Wow... Halloween: happy birthday eddy!

[psykopunk]

yes, he's so lucky tht cousin of mine... his birthday is on halloween... i wish mine was! -_-;
so im here at home after the hurricane.. alot has happend...

and my heart just seems to be on the line again.
this boy just makes me think too much...
its seems tht he's getting closer to finding all the pain i have buried deep within my soul
tht he could be what i am looking for...
we have talked for like 1 month and a half...and all i have seen is tht he is all i want.
my eyes mean to confess but im afraid of what will happen if i do
he makes me believe in romance again...
all my excuses dont make sense anymore
he makes me believe tht theres more to life...
all he does is make me believe...
he finds a beauty in me i dont see...
making me feel like a diamond in the rough
i dnt care about wat ppl think of him
being attractive to me is all he needs to be...
is it wrong to feel this way?
our lips met, tht icy moment melted in my mind when i replayd it
his eyes softend when i first said "srry" and he only wondered "for what?"
all i could do is relive those moments
i feel comfortable being around him, any stupid little thing i do doesnt seem to bother him... he only responds with being stupid as well.
im falling for him...im falling for him
all i could do is think
i drink his sweet whispers
all i could do is dream
being together with him feels right
all i could do is hope
wishing tht i wouldnt wake up finding it all a figment of my
childish imagination. . .

im just waiting for my heart to be ripped out of my chest so thn i could be one complete unemotional stone. im so scared