its a biggun'
So what's been up in the land of Mur? Mostly prerequisites to prepare for upcoming events that's for sure.
Just God, I haven't been more excited about the future and what it holds. I haven't been happier because I get to share it with the purest most beautiful heart in the world.
I am not going to HFCC this semester or college for that matter in the state of Michigan any longer. I plan on moving to Portland, Oregon to be with Courtney sometime before Christmas <3 Her and her friends have recently signed a lease for a gorgeous 3 bedroom / 2 floor apartment. It will be ready by late September and I will arrive soon after. Damn, the excitement is devastating.
Before hand, I have to rid myself of that financial living-hell of a car. Pay off the loan with the credit union and be on my way. With all that said and done, I will have an extra 400+ dollars in the pocket each month yo. Insurance and loan payments get harsh in time of criticalness.
After settling in I am going to the city's community college to pursue my dream of graphic design. Finding a job there will be a hundred times easier than it is here. Also, considering Portland's public transportation system is top notch I will not have to worry about getting lost or someone fucking smashing me down the street. Life in the big city to say the least ;)
I can't wait to be there and meet all of her friends and family, I already feel so much apart of them. It is the most comforting feeling imaginable. <3<3
September 15th I am going to Wisconsin to visit my dad and step mom for a few days. Flying there of course, fuck that car, it needs to stay where it is safe and can still make me a profit.
Panera bread has been alright, very lenient with atmosphere, but still enforcive on ideals. Just how I like it. Keep you busy so you don't have to watch the bastard clock.
Sigh, the only thing that I wish not to leave are my friends, my grandmother, and my cousin Lance. My friends always there for me, and their families to give me good advice. I take every word and cherish it as if I knew all along what knowledge they've given me. My grandmother for raising me in her home with her three daughters, and working harder than she has ever to support me and raise me in a home that was comfortable and nice in the past. With age comes knowing what has happened around you while you were unaware as a child. I have grown overly disgusted with all my family here; I really wish not to see them for an extremely long time. The only thing I can thank them for is that they made all the mistakes in life that I will never have to. A lot of the mistakes just being lack of common sense and decency. That is what is disgusting. Everyone makes mistakes, true. Alas, it is the fact that they just keep on denying their on going agenda to continue. That is unforgivable, how selfish people can be to ram things and ideas down your throat and expect you to deal and live with them. Bullshit, then I am said to judge by first look. When all along they are clueless that I viewed every aspect of the situation at hand, always. The past is not to live by, but to learn from and guide your future away from it. Always behind you, never to be dragged along like an oil soaked rag leaving permanent stains on your moral and being. My aunt Christine always knew the situation would come where I would grow infuriated with this family, that is why I look up to her and the fact she worked so hard to get to where she is at. A truly remarkable woman she is. She grew up in the same situations as mine and left as early as she could to rid her self of the filth clinging to her. After working and going to college all of her teenaged years and twenties, she is among one of the elite working class's of America. She has fought to get where she is, and that is where she belongs. Aunt Christine is the only person I can talk to when the frustrations of this household get to me, because she understands from first hand what it feels like. Where I am going with this is that I see Lance as my brother, though he is the son of my aunt Geneane. He has already been through more than I have as a child; he knows a lot more than he should at his age. He sees me as an Idol to follow and someone lead him to safety. Always coming to me to see what's the coolest thing to hit the streets ha-ha. To tell me how far he got in a game that I am good at. He reminds me of myself, just finding ways to ignore and bite your tongue at the mess around us. It is just a shame that he is a bit too young to be able to make his own decisions legally. He would be coming with me because I am afraid he is going to head down the wrong path if I can't be there to make him laugh at the simple things or smash his head into the grass outside ha-ha. He just seems so much older than 11, it sucks that it will be seven years until he will be able to move where he would like independently. I will be 25 by then, but pfft that is still young as hell. You never know the hand life deals; just know you always have a trump card in the midst. When the time comes, I know he will be living with me going the right way in this crazy ass world. That is what I would really like. He is a smart lad, he might succumb all wrongs until its time for him to move on himself, he already has the basic instinct and sense to stay away from pitfalls. I have faith in his young heart and mind; not his parents.
I cannot say what will happen in the near future, but I know I am going to finish college there. I am not able to concentrate on my education here. At least get my associates then go to a higher renowned college. I just know my location will never be certain. I will always be back to visit, all the time, count on it. Depending on where Courtney and I's careers are plentiful I could be back living here in the future.
Sigh, life is so wondrous; do not take a breath for granted.
Change isn't about a new start; it's about advancing to your ultimate passions in life.
No need to fear it.
out
Just God, I haven't been more excited about the future and what it holds. I haven't been happier because I get to share it with the purest most beautiful heart in the world.
I am not going to HFCC this semester or college for that matter in the state of Michigan any longer. I plan on moving to Portland, Oregon to be with Courtney sometime before Christmas <3 Her and her friends have recently signed a lease for a gorgeous 3 bedroom / 2 floor apartment. It will be ready by late September and I will arrive soon after. Damn, the excitement is devastating.
Before hand, I have to rid myself of that financial living-hell of a car. Pay off the loan with the credit union and be on my way. With all that said and done, I will have an extra 400+ dollars in the pocket each month yo. Insurance and loan payments get harsh in time of criticalness.
After settling in I am going to the city's community college to pursue my dream of graphic design. Finding a job there will be a hundred times easier than it is here. Also, considering Portland's public transportation system is top notch I will not have to worry about getting lost or someone fucking smashing me down the street. Life in the big city to say the least ;)
I can't wait to be there and meet all of her friends and family, I already feel so much apart of them. It is the most comforting feeling imaginable. <3<3
September 15th I am going to Wisconsin to visit my dad and step mom for a few days. Flying there of course, fuck that car, it needs to stay where it is safe and can still make me a profit.
Panera bread has been alright, very lenient with atmosphere, but still enforcive on ideals. Just how I like it. Keep you busy so you don't have to watch the bastard clock.
Sigh, the only thing that I wish not to leave are my friends, my grandmother, and my cousin Lance. My friends always there for me, and their families to give me good advice. I take every word and cherish it as if I knew all along what knowledge they've given me. My grandmother for raising me in her home with her three daughters, and working harder than she has ever to support me and raise me in a home that was comfortable and nice in the past. With age comes knowing what has happened around you while you were unaware as a child. I have grown overly disgusted with all my family here; I really wish not to see them for an extremely long time. The only thing I can thank them for is that they made all the mistakes in life that I will never have to. A lot of the mistakes just being lack of common sense and decency. That is what is disgusting. Everyone makes mistakes, true. Alas, it is the fact that they just keep on denying their on going agenda to continue. That is unforgivable, how selfish people can be to ram things and ideas down your throat and expect you to deal and live with them. Bullshit, then I am said to judge by first look. When all along they are clueless that I viewed every aspect of the situation at hand, always. The past is not to live by, but to learn from and guide your future away from it. Always behind you, never to be dragged along like an oil soaked rag leaving permanent stains on your moral and being. My aunt Christine always knew the situation would come where I would grow infuriated with this family, that is why I look up to her and the fact she worked so hard to get to where she is at. A truly remarkable woman she is. She grew up in the same situations as mine and left as early as she could to rid her self of the filth clinging to her. After working and going to college all of her teenaged years and twenties, she is among one of the elite working class's of America. She has fought to get where she is, and that is where she belongs. Aunt Christine is the only person I can talk to when the frustrations of this household get to me, because she understands from first hand what it feels like. Where I am going with this is that I see Lance as my brother, though he is the son of my aunt Geneane. He has already been through more than I have as a child; he knows a lot more than he should at his age. He sees me as an Idol to follow and someone lead him to safety. Always coming to me to see what's the coolest thing to hit the streets ha-ha. To tell me how far he got in a game that I am good at. He reminds me of myself, just finding ways to ignore and bite your tongue at the mess around us. It is just a shame that he is a bit too young to be able to make his own decisions legally. He would be coming with me because I am afraid he is going to head down the wrong path if I can't be there to make him laugh at the simple things or smash his head into the grass outside ha-ha. He just seems so much older than 11, it sucks that it will be seven years until he will be able to move where he would like independently. I will be 25 by then, but pfft that is still young as hell. You never know the hand life deals; just know you always have a trump card in the midst. When the time comes, I know he will be living with me going the right way in this crazy ass world. That is what I would really like. He is a smart lad, he might succumb all wrongs until its time for him to move on himself, he already has the basic instinct and sense to stay away from pitfalls. I have faith in his young heart and mind; not his parents.
I cannot say what will happen in the near future, but I know I am going to finish college there. I am not able to concentrate on my education here. At least get my associates then go to a higher renowned college. I just know my location will never be certain. I will always be back to visit, all the time, count on it. Depending on where Courtney and I's careers are plentiful I could be back living here in the future.
Sigh, life is so wondrous; do not take a breath for granted.
Change isn't about a new start; it's about advancing to your ultimate passions in life.
No need to fear it.
out