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I dont know exactly whats brought me to this state tonight, but this is an anger I thought I left behind me a long time ago. I never thought I'd feel like this ever again after all my therapy and being of my medication (which i've stopped taking again, I'm too strong for that shit anymore), but I have a lust for blood tonight. I went on a walk tonight into downtown just looking for anyone to start shit with. I want to make someone hurt, I want to see them bleed, feel powerful. It's really kinda creeping me out because it has been so long since this has happened last, but the urge to see blood again has got me extremely emotional. Not to the point where I would kill myself, but to a certain extent that I would just want to cut my leg open just to watch it bleed. I'm seriously not into the idea of self-mutilation, hell, I hate the idea of getting a peircing, but tonight... I want the blood to spill everywhere...