Mar 28, 2005 11:00
sooo i've been thinking alot. mainly about life and how expirences change you and effect different people. and i cant even begin to decribe what i have learned from not only myself but my friends and their actions in situations. and all of these books that i have been reading for .. well... more or less guilty pleasure... have really placed things into perspective. and one thing that i have decided never faulters is that...
the truth is nothing more than the collective reasonings of everyone's opinion
and so with that in mind you cant really be mad at anyone for anyting. because you dont know what exactly happend and what people were thinking at the time of their actions. although to conter that whole thought process, you still need to have strong communication ties with everyone (aka-your friends) to ensure no one gets mad, and jumps to comclusions about your actions.
i've also been thinking alot about love and what it truely means and how none of us should actually be looking for a relationship right now because it really doesnt even count in high school. you change so often that finding someone who understands you one day could become a complete stranger the next. plus everyones... (fuck whats the word.. uhh ... i guess morals is the best word i have for it. ) morals are varied so much that if you actually want something that is going to last and work .. you're basicly fucked. you grow up in your parents ideals (hopefully with your own modified morals too) and that isnt necisarily the ideals of sociaty. which is what you will be a costom to by the time you do start to look for that person. also you have to be able to surrender to that person emotionally and physicly and well in this day & age alot of couples skip the emotional surrendering and just jump right into the physical aspect of surrendering. which in the right relationship it could be extremely ravishing for both people because you already care so deeply for eachother and the emotional extacy is already there, but in the wrong relationship it can be somewhat asocciated with rape because those feelings are forced apon you. although to ravish and to rape are very similar, the outcome of resulting pleasure are completly different. women usually surrender to men because we think of that as being sexually liberated instead of having our own rules, or our own terms on how or what we feel, need or want. for women to show themselves in that situation to someone they already care about so much is hard becuase you already have a set place with that person. and with someone you arent regualrly dating there are no obligations,and you are free to live out any hidden fantasy but the down-side is there is no long ter gratification. and the ultimite goal for most women is to find that one love that lasts. but lessons must be learned in order to grow and and fully appreciate everythhing you have been through. which in turn means not regreting what you have done. which is big deal for most people expecially women who are tought that those things are shameful. which i know sounds crazy but is true. also men of great power or status because they feel that they need to overly meet the expectations of being that status of high power.
wow... im really hoping that makes sense.
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love ya all!!