i donno
my dads being so fucking gay right now. ok so i slept in my sleepingbag the other night, so obviously i have to roll it back up. i kno this... im not so fucking stupid i cant figure these things out on my own.. but he has to ask me every 5 min to do it. its like god damn im busy ill get it later... so its jus chillin in my room right now cauz i didnt feel like doin it last night. he needs to realize im not alittle girl anymore i can do things on my own... yea ok.. random angry pissed off spazm.. i feel better...
anyway i had the weirdest dream last night... it was about tomarrow (tuesday). it was one of the worst dreams iv ever had. it started out when we got back from festival. and we ended up getting a very low 3 but the judges didnt add it up right so it ended up to be a 4. i was crying over it... same with half the class. this was the lowest score lake orion has ever gotten. so we were all pissed, sad & extemely "emotional" at the end of the day i had a message in the office saying that my grandma was put into a hospital because her diabetes were acting up REALLY badly and the docters didnt think shed last thourgh the week. so im crying even harder. i didnt see derek after school, so i wasnt doin good when i got to the bus. (note though all of this i was in my ooogly, & VERY uncomfortable choir dress) the bus ride i dont kno what happend... sam was bein a bitch bout crissie again (& mike too) & rachel wasnt there... when i get home alisha was already at work. & i didnt wanna talk to anyone else, plus alex was online spreadin the news to his "friends". I didnt go to youth group the whole time, just to drop off the permission slip for the lockin. (i was still crying) everyone was like OH whats wrong? & all that bull. derek went to walk me back to the car but his mom wouldnt let him for some unknown reason. (tricia was talking to her & her face was... not good) so i just told him to call me when he got home. i talked to alisha for like 10 min but she was goin on bout her job & how she had to clean & shit. derek calls me at like right after & hes all freakin out caus i was cryin. i told him what happend & then it was all of a sudden @ 10:50 & my dad storms in yellin at me & tellin me to get off the phone. this pushed me over the edge.. i bitched him out for everything he does/done to piss me off. (all with derek in stunned silece on the phone) after i was done my dad almost back handed me across the face cauz of the shit i said. (i was swearing too.. which made it worse) then i woke up. in tears & a wet pillow from me crying. this was at 4:30. i took a shower at 5:15 and was ready to go to school at 6:20... fucked up isnt it?
i hated that dream... anyway.. yea.. that was alot. so bye
OH! qoute of the day
Believe me. nothing is trivial -the crow
anyway i had the weirdest dream last night... it was about tomarrow (tuesday). it was one of the worst dreams iv ever had. it started out when we got back from festival. and we ended up getting a very low 3 but the judges didnt add it up right so it ended up to be a 4. i was crying over it... same with half the class. this was the lowest score lake orion has ever gotten. so we were all pissed, sad & extemely "emotional" at the end of the day i had a message in the office saying that my grandma was put into a hospital because her diabetes were acting up REALLY badly and the docters didnt think shed last thourgh the week. so im crying even harder. i didnt see derek after school, so i wasnt doin good when i got to the bus. (note though all of this i was in my ooogly, & VERY uncomfortable choir dress) the bus ride i dont kno what happend... sam was bein a bitch bout crissie again (& mike too) & rachel wasnt there... when i get home alisha was already at work. & i didnt wanna talk to anyone else, plus alex was online spreadin the news to his "friends". I didnt go to youth group the whole time, just to drop off the permission slip for the lockin. (i was still crying) everyone was like OH whats wrong? & all that bull. derek went to walk me back to the car but his mom wouldnt let him for some unknown reason. (tricia was talking to her & her face was... not good) so i just told him to call me when he got home. i talked to alisha for like 10 min but she was goin on bout her job & how she had to clean & shit. derek calls me at like right after & hes all freakin out caus i was cryin. i told him what happend & then it was all of a sudden @ 10:50 & my dad storms in yellin at me & tellin me to get off the phone. this pushed me over the edge.. i bitched him out for everything he does/done to piss me off. (all with derek in stunned silece on the phone) after i was done my dad almost back handed me across the face cauz of the shit i said. (i was swearing too.. which made it worse) then i woke up. in tears & a wet pillow from me crying. this was at 4:30. i took a shower at 5:15 and was ready to go to school at 6:20... fucked up isnt it?
i hated that dream... anyway.. yea.. that was alot. so bye
OH! qoute of the day
Believe me. nothing is trivial -the crow