FUCK!!!!!!!
alright so as soon as i think everything is getting better i have tyo go and fuck it up, i dont even know why i do this shit. i havent done it in a long time, almost 5 months now and today i decide to go and bring up old memories. bad fuckin idea. now i know why i did so many drugs, i put myself through so much shit with everyone and i needed to forget about it all and fuck, i diddnt get to go to petes party yesterday which i guess ended up god, cuz i would have had to deal with alex and pat, not my two favorite people in the world, and given the state ive been in since yesterday after i wrote in here ive just been loosing my mind, i want to get in a fight so fuckin bad, i blown up on at least 3 people today(including my boss) and im just ready to kill someone, alright now that i got that out, id like to mention this article was not directed at anyone in particular, whats happened has happened im just having a bad couple days, and now that i no longer have any mind altering substances to take my mind off of it all i have to find another way to deal with it FUCK FUCK FUCK!!