dazed
Reasons why Eric is depressed:
1) Friends who don’t have respect
2) Being unemployed for two months
3) Money - funds, are starting to run out
4) I’m having to resort to applying at high school jobs (aka cabelas)
5) Worried that after I find a job I wont make enough money and ill have to have more than one job from now on.
6) Afraid I wont get highered anywhere period
I don’t know. I’m just really depressed. And from the list it looks like it all surrounds the fact that for the first time in my entire life I don’t have any control over my financial realm. I mean, I know that I’ve been unemployed for 6 months before after I graduates from college. But it was my choice the first three months I lived at home and did nothing. The next three I moved away and then actively started looking for a job. And it wasn’t as hard. This just feels really really hard. And I guess its starting to get to me. I now get calls telling me that I am over qualified. I cannot get a regular job like a cashier because I’m over qualified. I can’t get highered as a city utilities billings person because I am over qualified. How am I supposed to get a job in wheeling, WV or the surrounding areas if all the jobs that are available I happen to be over qualified for? IT just blows. So I have an interview for a job that is practically in Pittsburgh. I don’t know if I’ll get it. It is just an interview so it might go nowhere. But Now I get to make less than I did before and drive an hour (with out traffic) each direction so that I can get to work. (If I get the job) So. I just don’t know. I’m not happy, that I’m doing nothing. And I’m so stressed out that I wont find anything. And everything just really really blows right now. And maybe I’m over reacting. I probably am.
Maybe I just need to breath. God all my friends went to the alpha tonight to get the two for one appetizers and a few beers. I ditched them because I couldn’t handle being there even though I am sure that I would have livened up more if I had stayed and had some social interaction. Its just like I’m fighting with my self because I know I should have stayed but I wasn’t in the mood to be there…I wasn’t talking to anyone. So maybe it’s ok that I left? Ugh.
Summer is supposed to be happy. Why can’t I be happy?
1) Friends who don’t have respect
2) Being unemployed for two months
3) Money - funds, are starting to run out
4) I’m having to resort to applying at high school jobs (aka cabelas)
5) Worried that after I find a job I wont make enough money and ill have to have more than one job from now on.
6) Afraid I wont get highered anywhere period
I don’t know. I’m just really depressed. And from the list it looks like it all surrounds the fact that for the first time in my entire life I don’t have any control over my financial realm. I mean, I know that I’ve been unemployed for 6 months before after I graduates from college. But it was my choice the first three months I lived at home and did nothing. The next three I moved away and then actively started looking for a job. And it wasn’t as hard. This just feels really really hard. And I guess its starting to get to me. I now get calls telling me that I am over qualified. I cannot get a regular job like a cashier because I’m over qualified. I can’t get highered as a city utilities billings person because I am over qualified. How am I supposed to get a job in wheeling, WV or the surrounding areas if all the jobs that are available I happen to be over qualified for? IT just blows. So I have an interview for a job that is practically in Pittsburgh. I don’t know if I’ll get it. It is just an interview so it might go nowhere. But Now I get to make less than I did before and drive an hour (with out traffic) each direction so that I can get to work. (If I get the job) So. I just don’t know. I’m not happy, that I’m doing nothing. And I’m so stressed out that I wont find anything. And everything just really really blows right now. And maybe I’m over reacting. I probably am.
Maybe I just need to breath. God all my friends went to the alpha tonight to get the two for one appetizers and a few beers. I ditched them because I couldn’t handle being there even though I am sure that I would have livened up more if I had stayed and had some social interaction. Its just like I’m fighting with my self because I know I should have stayed but I wasn’t in the mood to be there…I wasn’t talking to anyone. So maybe it’s ok that I left? Ugh.
Summer is supposed to be happy. Why can’t I be happy?