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i feel kinda weird i dont really fit in wit my fam im like an odd ball every one here is so into talkin bout things wit each other an constently havein a conversation bout things that r on there mind or things that r botherin them an i have such a hard time talkin bout shit like that cause i never no who is donna be there for me when i run into a roadblock like i dont want to start to talk to someone an then have them leave me cause then i wont feel comfortable wit talkin to ne one else ... at least here i no that i am loved by everyone an no one lets me forget it an i have a fam here that would do ne thing to help me out ... i love to talk to my cousin sandy an jess were all 10 years apart jess is 28 an sandy is 38 btu we talk to each other as if we all grew up together an we love each other so much i love that i no i have someone to rely on when i feel like shit or when im in a pissy mood to set me strait i nevr had ppl like that in my life an now that i do i dont wont it to go i am goin to stay out here i am never movin back into the city i jus wish that i would have gottin out here under different sircumstances i feel at home here an i havent felt that my entire life not even when i was wit my mom ... tommorrow acually today i am goin into n. brookfeild to find a job i hope its nice out cause i dont want it to rain all day on me an ill stop in my brothes house an say hi he an laura jsu broke up again but i saw it comein well thats bout it oh my num. is 508 nevr mind my cousin fell a sleep