Another 21
Aaron turned 21 toady, I wrestled about whether or not to wish him a happy one and finally settled that I was the bigger man and that he did say it to me..... and I I'm still madly in love with the little guy....pointlessly so. His brother even decided to remind me oh the birthday..... how sweet.
On our first date I asked Aaron what he would want for this celebration. He told me I wouldnt have to get him anything, I guess he was right.
His brother keeps messaging me. It hurts but I like knowing that one person that claimed to love me.... still does. Hes a great kid and got really upset when I deleted him. Aaron doesnt seem to care. Didn't figre he would, truthfully I'm not sure why I was kept on his for so long. Maybe he figured that one day we could be friends. Maybe thats true. But I still feel as though he lied to me and am still bothered by the fact that he didnt have enough respect for me to answer my questions... whether or not they would help me.
I still have my theories....
Im going to my great grandmothers funeral tomorrow in kingston, then from there to dover to stay the night with my aunt, then to NC to spend the week with kelly and my family.
when i get back i should invest in some therapy
At least the new job is going well.... oh yeah, I started at PJ on monday.
Final Thought: this is all too much to handle at once.
-Paul
On our first date I asked Aaron what he would want for this celebration. He told me I wouldnt have to get him anything, I guess he was right.
His brother keeps messaging me. It hurts but I like knowing that one person that claimed to love me.... still does. Hes a great kid and got really upset when I deleted him. Aaron doesnt seem to care. Didn't figre he would, truthfully I'm not sure why I was kept on his for so long. Maybe he figured that one day we could be friends. Maybe thats true. But I still feel as though he lied to me and am still bothered by the fact that he didnt have enough respect for me to answer my questions... whether or not they would help me.
I still have my theories....
Im going to my great grandmothers funeral tomorrow in kingston, then from there to dover to stay the night with my aunt, then to NC to spend the week with kelly and my family.
when i get back i should invest in some therapy
At least the new job is going well.... oh yeah, I started at PJ on monday.
Final Thought: this is all too much to handle at once.
-Paul