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okay s0o thing have been a little depressing lately .. last weekend i sat home and ate ! i just watched movies and got fatter .. it wasn't that fun ! i thought alot about everything .. i think i thought about everything atleast 100 times , im serious ! i don't even remember what movies i watched , it's sad that i really thought that much .. it was alot of thinking ! i thought about 4 people that mean or meant alot to me in the past .. Pj , Anthony , Kyle , and Roy !
god , everything has just been s0o horrible lately and i haven't had anyone to vent to .. i wish i could like talk to my brother about it but i wouldn't know where to start ! and Roy , me and him just started talking again today .. and that made me happy a little i guess ! like don't get me wrong , im glad were talking again but im just to upset to even be nuetral .. or anything beside completely depressed !
Kyle .. wow , i think about him like i did when i was going out with him ! haha , it's funny the way people say they love you then when you guys are over or in a fight they say they never loved you ! people are s0o weird , i will never understand them .. not even myself !
Anthony .. i don't even who whats going on with him ! he is just there , like someone i liked but never really knew or talked to .. he is just one that will always be just in my head as an aquatnence ! [[ how ever you spell it ]] and thats it i guess i don't want to both with him anymore , even though i have a feeling i will again in the future .. as if believe a had a change yet again !
i miss Pj more then anything .. he is someone who is constantly on my mind ! no matter how much i try to get him off .. ugh , i don't know what to do anymore ! i have a dream about him last night .. about the time at Six Flags when we were going out ! my mind just kept playing this one part over and over again .. it was this part when he let go of me and ran to this girl Alyssa that he liked before we went out ! it felt like my mind was trying to get me to like hate Pj , or turn it s0o that i wouldn't be depressed about him not wanting me in his life .. it was weird ! w.e it was trying to do , it didn't work .. it just made me think of all the wonder times i had with him ! i even think about after he dumped me .. we talked for quite awhile and went for a walk ! we talked about alot .. just for that night , i owed him everything !
ugh , im going to go to sleep now and try and stop thinking about everything .. mostly Pj ! well , i said try .. even though i know i still will ! UGH !
MICH * BOO
god , everything has just been s0o horrible lately and i haven't had anyone to vent to .. i wish i could like talk to my brother about it but i wouldn't know where to start ! and Roy , me and him just started talking again today .. and that made me happy a little i guess ! like don't get me wrong , im glad were talking again but im just to upset to even be nuetral .. or anything beside completely depressed !
Kyle .. wow , i think about him like i did when i was going out with him ! haha , it's funny the way people say they love you then when you guys are over or in a fight they say they never loved you ! people are s0o weird , i will never understand them .. not even myself !
Anthony .. i don't even who whats going on with him ! he is just there , like someone i liked but never really knew or talked to .. he is just one that will always be just in my head as an aquatnence ! [[ how ever you spell it ]] and thats it i guess i don't want to both with him anymore , even though i have a feeling i will again in the future .. as if believe a had a change yet again !
i miss Pj more then anything .. he is someone who is constantly on my mind ! no matter how much i try to get him off .. ugh , i don't know what to do anymore ! i have a dream about him last night .. about the time at Six Flags when we were going out ! my mind just kept playing this one part over and over again .. it was this part when he let go of me and ran to this girl Alyssa that he liked before we went out ! it felt like my mind was trying to get me to like hate Pj , or turn it s0o that i wouldn't be depressed about him not wanting me in his life .. it was weird ! w.e it was trying to do , it didn't work .. it just made me think of all the wonder times i had with him ! i even think about after he dumped me .. we talked for quite awhile and went for a walk ! we talked about alot .. just for that night , i owed him everything !
ugh , im going to go to sleep now and try and stop thinking about everything .. mostly Pj ! well , i said try .. even though i know i still will ! UGH !
MICH * BOO