Dear Loved ones...
As played out and mainstream as it is, Greenday's "Good Riddance (Time of your life)" says it best...
I have spent my whole youth and adult life putting everything in to all of you, because I took the time to know you, and I know deep down you guys were amazing people. You all made special places in my heart, some more then others, and those spots will always be there. We clicked off from the beginning because we knew we were not like others. Other people were villians. They take what they want from everyone in their path, never caring of consequences or who they hurt. They do not love unconditionally as we did, and they always put themselves first. We were not like this. We were the few that were different. We knew how to be real friends. devoted lovers. faithful. trustworthy. love unconditionally. sacrifice all. We did not give up as easy as others, because we saw the good in people, and how everyone deserved a new chance, with us not letting baggage hold us back from caring unconditionally. We knew that if we could remind them how it is like to truely love and be truely loved, we could save them from being the villian they now were. We sacrificed all, and trusted with no boundaries, as though we had never been hurt.
Times have changed. People have changed. You have all let the world get the best of you. I even have. Some of you have given up, and turned to villians. Some of you are throwing your lifes away with lust and drug addiction as a coping method, no longer for good times. Most of you are doing all of these. Which is what brings me to this desicion:
I am letting go of these friendships and relationships. I am tired of wrecking myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and letting you guys wreck me psychologically. These relationships have all gone sour, and are all now poison. You guys no longer see me as a friend, but as the enemy. Simply because I want the best for you. Simply because I know you guys are all the smartest people I know, and have so much potential. You just let this world and the other villians in it get the best of you, and you choose to be stupid. Not only what I feel is stupid, but your old amazing selfs, that I fell in love with, felt was stupid too. We apparently have nothing in common. I stress you out because you feel I am playing mother, and you stress me out because I have to sit by and watch the things I love most in this world be their own worst enemies, and destroy themselves. I can not take it anymore. It hurts too much knowing I can not make you guys not hurt. I can only help you guys so much, before you have to start helping yourselfs for the better.
So I am stepping back. I am releasing all of you of this friendship. This soul binding love I felt we once shared. I am a wreck and teetering on the edge. I am no good to anyone if I completely lose it. I do not hate any of you, and never will. I still love you all unconditionally. For my own sanity I can no longer consume my whole life with trying to help you when you will not even help yourself. So I leave you on this note. I will not say goodbye, as hopefully this is not the end. But it is now. It is over, and I have to move on from such shared toxicity. You will all always have a special place in my heart, and I will always remember you as the people you once were. The people I saw deep inside when no one else took the time to care. The people I fell in love with...
I have spent my whole youth and adult life putting everything in to all of you, because I took the time to know you, and I know deep down you guys were amazing people. You all made special places in my heart, some more then others, and those spots will always be there. We clicked off from the beginning because we knew we were not like others. Other people were villians. They take what they want from everyone in their path, never caring of consequences or who they hurt. They do not love unconditionally as we did, and they always put themselves first. We were not like this. We were the few that were different. We knew how to be real friends. devoted lovers. faithful. trustworthy. love unconditionally. sacrifice all. We did not give up as easy as others, because we saw the good in people, and how everyone deserved a new chance, with us not letting baggage hold us back from caring unconditionally. We knew that if we could remind them how it is like to truely love and be truely loved, we could save them from being the villian they now were. We sacrificed all, and trusted with no boundaries, as though we had never been hurt.
Times have changed. People have changed. You have all let the world get the best of you. I even have. Some of you have given up, and turned to villians. Some of you are throwing your lifes away with lust and drug addiction as a coping method, no longer for good times. Most of you are doing all of these. Which is what brings me to this desicion:
I am letting go of these friendships and relationships. I am tired of wrecking myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and letting you guys wreck me psychologically. These relationships have all gone sour, and are all now poison. You guys no longer see me as a friend, but as the enemy. Simply because I want the best for you. Simply because I know you guys are all the smartest people I know, and have so much potential. You just let this world and the other villians in it get the best of you, and you choose to be stupid. Not only what I feel is stupid, but your old amazing selfs, that I fell in love with, felt was stupid too. We apparently have nothing in common. I stress you out because you feel I am playing mother, and you stress me out because I have to sit by and watch the things I love most in this world be their own worst enemies, and destroy themselves. I can not take it anymore. It hurts too much knowing I can not make you guys not hurt. I can only help you guys so much, before you have to start helping yourselfs for the better.
So I am stepping back. I am releasing all of you of this friendship. This soul binding love I felt we once shared. I am a wreck and teetering on the edge. I am no good to anyone if I completely lose it. I do not hate any of you, and never will. I still love you all unconditionally. For my own sanity I can no longer consume my whole life with trying to help you when you will not even help yourself. So I leave you on this note. I will not say goodbye, as hopefully this is not the end. But it is now. It is over, and I have to move on from such shared toxicity. You will all always have a special place in my heart, and I will always remember you as the people you once were. The people I saw deep inside when no one else took the time to care. The people I fell in love with...