pissed off
oh im so fuckin pissed off my dad n bro r arguin ova the fuckin volume of the tv n me bros stormed out n me dads now fumin wot a way 2 make me wanna come home frm uni
i h8 uni but i dnt av many options really come home n h8 life or go 2 uni n h8 life man im just so depressed at the moment i need2 get out go sum wer im appreciated but that aint gonna happen any time soon no1 appreciates me not even my friends they all think im loony/ mad i dnt av any1 who really values being eith me or wants 2 spend time wiv me i just want a holw in the gorund 2 swallow me up so i dnt av 2 b here no more......sometimes i go 2 sleep wishin i wnt wake up in the mornin but as usual i always do
wots worse is my parents wanna move 2 the isle of whight wen me dad told me he folloewd it wiv "wot do u think? ur at uni so it dnt matterwer u go home 2 does it?" i cudnt b bothered 2 state otherwise if my own dad doesnt no me well enough 2 no that all my "friends" r here iv grown up here n i dnt wanna leave. but hey wot he wants he usually gets. id be selfish if i sed i daint want him 2 go anyway cos he wants a job down there n he hates the 1 hes in now so moving wud make him happy but then im sick of thinkin bout wot others want wot about wot i want 4 a change??? i dnt wanna go live on sum fuckin little island full of sheep n inbreds wiv nothin 2 do fuckin hell man who wud wanna live like that. i wudnt b able 2 get a job down ther once i finish uni the islands 2 fuckin small 2 av any jobs that i want. i h8 it i h8 it i h8 it. id stay up here but then iv got no1 2 live with it really pisses me off when all i wanna do is get on wiv life the easiest way possble wiv little change iv had enough trauma 2 last me a life time why cant people just make it simple 4 me now, why cant sum1 make me happy? i long for one thing more than naythin in this life n that is 2 be happy but since i cant ever remember one happy moment in my life n its not lookin like things r gonna pick up any time soon looks like thats never gonna happen and im gonna be stuck here 4 god knows how many yrs bein depressed is it really worth it? im not gonna make any big difference in life. wud any1 care if i wernt here? i know this answer to that one and its a big fat NO! im just another average schmuck on this planet who life passes by with out anythin real important happenin without any true meaning to life and finally without any happiness.......................why am i still here waiting for nothin 2 paa me by? wots the point? why do i av 2 be here? religious people would say god put every1 on this earth 4 a reason i wud say i dnt av a reason 4 bein here so ill just leave..............
i h8 uni but i dnt av many options really come home n h8 life or go 2 uni n h8 life man im just so depressed at the moment i need2 get out go sum wer im appreciated but that aint gonna happen any time soon no1 appreciates me not even my friends they all think im loony/ mad i dnt av any1 who really values being eith me or wants 2 spend time wiv me i just want a holw in the gorund 2 swallow me up so i dnt av 2 b here no more......sometimes i go 2 sleep wishin i wnt wake up in the mornin but as usual i always do
wots worse is my parents wanna move 2 the isle of whight wen me dad told me he folloewd it wiv "wot do u think? ur at uni so it dnt matterwer u go home 2 does it?" i cudnt b bothered 2 state otherwise if my own dad doesnt no me well enough 2 no that all my "friends" r here iv grown up here n i dnt wanna leave. but hey wot he wants he usually gets. id be selfish if i sed i daint want him 2 go anyway cos he wants a job down there n he hates the 1 hes in now so moving wud make him happy but then im sick of thinkin bout wot others want wot about wot i want 4 a change??? i dnt wanna go live on sum fuckin little island full of sheep n inbreds wiv nothin 2 do fuckin hell man who wud wanna live like that. i wudnt b able 2 get a job down ther once i finish uni the islands 2 fuckin small 2 av any jobs that i want. i h8 it i h8 it i h8 it. id stay up here but then iv got no1 2 live with it really pisses me off when all i wanna do is get on wiv life the easiest way possble wiv little change iv had enough trauma 2 last me a life time why cant people just make it simple 4 me now, why cant sum1 make me happy? i long for one thing more than naythin in this life n that is 2 be happy but since i cant ever remember one happy moment in my life n its not lookin like things r gonna pick up any time soon looks like thats never gonna happen and im gonna be stuck here 4 god knows how many yrs bein depressed is it really worth it? im not gonna make any big difference in life. wud any1 care if i wernt here? i know this answer to that one and its a big fat NO! im just another average schmuck on this planet who life passes by with out anythin real important happenin without any true meaning to life and finally without any happiness.......................why am i still here waiting for nothin 2 paa me by? wots the point? why do i av 2 be here? religious people would say god put every1 on this earth 4 a reason i wud say i dnt av a reason 4 bein here so ill just leave..............